After about ten minutes, I cleaned him up again and walked him to the car.
He looked really tired and I felt like he was gonna pass out.
This boy was my first love. My first everything actually. Okay, he wasn't my first kiss, Brook was.
But I mean, Jabu means so much to me. I feel like the feelings I once had for this boy are gradually coming back and I don't know how to react to them. It's all the amazing sex we've been having.
Not that I don't want to love him but I- I'm just really scared, you know?
What if things don't go back to how they were almost 11 months ago? Will I ever have him as my own?
I can't answer any of those questions and I need answers. I jus- oh fuck. I don't know. I just don't know anymore.
I don't know what to do. I dont know how to make myself happy. Can Jabu do that? I mean, Didi made me happy. And so did Mpumi. But things backfired with both of them.
I can't go back to girls. I just can't. They've damaged me enough. And honestly, I just want to suck and ride dick now.
"I really fucking love you," he confessed while I drove slowly to the house. "Must be all that gin talking," I chuckled.
"Not at all. I mean... I love you. Always have and always will. Seeing you with other people broke me. I realized that you found happiness and I was happy for you, really. I was just sad that you didn't find happiness in me," he said.
I uhm... what the fuck do I say? Do I love Jabu? Is that even a question? Of course I do. He means so much to me and I don't wanna lose him.
Here goes nothing... "I love you, Jabu," I said to him. "I know you do. No matter how hard you try to hide or avoid your feelings for me, I know that you love me," he smiled.
Butterflies flattered in my stomach and a big smile grew on my face.
I parked in the garage and Jabu's lips meet mine and I quickly pulled away.
"What's wrong?" he asked. "Uhm... you smell like vomit," I say and he laughs.
We walk into the house with my hand in his directing him. "What happened to him?" Puse asked me.
"He got too drunk," I said. "You changed your outfit?" Lesedi asked scanning me.
"I had to. He vomited on me," I said with my eyes fixed on the wasted boy next to me.
"I'm gonna go help him clean up and put him to bed," I say and leave.
I ran the water in the tub while Jabu sat on the bed and I came to undress him. He needs a bath. His eyes locked with mine and I suppressed the urge to kiss him.
I sat him in the bath tub and spilled water over his body. "I ruined your night, didn't I?" he asked me.
"No, you didn't. You actually made it more interesting," I tell him and he smiles.
"Get in," he demanded. "Okay daddy," I smiled. I undressed and joined him in the tub.
I sat in between his legs a with my back to him. I feel him get hard behind me and I turned my head to look at him.
"Sit on it," he said softly. I lifted my body up and then sat down with him going deep into me.
The feeling of the warm water rush past my vagina somehow pleasuring me.
His hand moved to my pussy and he rubbed it. His stimulation caused me to arch my back and slightly rock my hips.
This bought more pleasure to me and I felt my orgasm build up. "I'm gonna cum," I breathe.
Seconds later, I climax and pant with him still in me. "I love you," he whispers. "I love you," I whisper back.
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