Luna
I must of fell asleep watching Scooby doo, something that one of us always end up doing when we watch a movie
Gus wasn't next to me and the room was quiet, the only sound you could here was everyone out in the front room.
I got up out of the bed and looked around the room looking for gus but he was no where to be seen.
He's probably in the front room with everyone
I calmed down and walked through the apartment where the commotion was, it got louder as the closer i walked into the room
It wasn't just gbc, it was groups of people, great so they've thrown a party
"Um what is happening" i said putting my hand on my hip stood in the doorway
"A goodbye party i guess?" Coldy said sitting on the couch looking up at me
They know about gus leaving? No if they did they wouldn't throw a party
"For?"
"The tour as we leave in two days" he shrugged making me nod.
I looked around for gus and he was no where to be seen so i gave up and walked back to the room
The sound of soft sobs came into my hearing making me look around the room closing the door.
I walked towards the closet and the sobbing got louder
"Gus?" The sobbing stopped
I opened the closet door revealing gus sat there crawled up into a ball sobbing his eyes out, the same way i found him the other day
He was crying in the closet
"Oh my god baby what's a matter" i crouched down next to him and pulled him into my chest letting him sob uncontrollably into it
"I- I don't know what to do" he stuttered
"What do you mean?"
"With them" he continued
"I've given them everything i have to offer, i'm bringing them on tour, i let them have my clothes, i give them money, i let them stay in my apartment i don't know what else i can do" these words broke my heart i know gus struggled with people being equal, he couldn't get his head around the fact that he was getting somewhere with his music but just further than everyone else was
"Gus listen to me" i grabbed his face making him look at me wiping the tears away that strolled down his face
"You have been through alot of pain during your
life, and this has led to the music you make" i said putting emphasis on the you "It isn't up to you whether or not you make it bigger than the rest of them, you're not in charge of them you're in charge of you. Baby i know it's hard but sometimes you just have to focus on yourself and stop worrying about other people, it's up to them what they do with their life not you. You're the most kind and caring person i think i've ever met and they know that but they're just using it against you now" i said looking him in the eyes
"It's so hard though i just want everyone to be the same. I hate seeing myself having more than others" he said breaking down again, i wrapped my arms around him pulling him close to me
"baby don't worry about it okay" i said smiling kissing him on the head making him nod and snuggle into me
"Can we get out of this closet please my back hurts" i laughed
He nodded and stepped out pulling me up by his hand
We walked over to the bed and gus flopped down pulling me with him ontop of him
"I love you so much baby i don't ever want to leave you" gus whispered looking into my eyes
"I'll never leave you" i said leaning down to kiss me, i felt him smile against my lips making me smile aswell, he wrapped his arms around my waist tighter and flipped us over so he was ontop of me
He kissed me harder repeatedly all over my face, i locked my arms around his neck pulling him closer so he could kiss my neck which he knew i loved.
He pulled away suddenly making me frown
"What's wrong?" I asked turning my head
He shook his head
"I don't know i just had a really bad feeling about something, like i'm gonna die" he said getting off me and sitting on the edge of the bed "I don't wanna die" he mumbled tears brimming in his eyes looking back at me
"Baby don't talk like that" i said sitting beside him placing my hand on his shoulder
"Yeah your right" he smiled looking at me leaning in to kiss my lips
"Promise you'll stay with me" he whispered pulling out of the kiss holding out his pinky
I laughed nodding locking out pinkies together
"I pinky promise" i smiled kissing him again on the lips
I had a bad feeling about the next couple of weeks
But I couldn't let gus know that
