Gus
I started to worry about everything all of a sudden, what if she finds someone better than me or she gets bored of me and cheats on me?
No she wouldn't do that to me she likes me she said if she didn't she wouldn't be here right now
I pulled some xanax out of my pocket that i keep on me all the time incase i want to calm myself down
I popped three in my mouth not looking at Luna, hoping she wont realise
"Gus whats that" her sweet voice rung next to me
"Xanax" i said still not looking at her
I know if i look at her i'll give in and all my emotions will leak out and it wont be pretty.
As soon as i was gonna say something the door went signalling that the pizzas are here i got up before anyone else could to go and get them
"Cheers man" i said handing the pizza boy the money with a 50 dollar tip, being nice doesn't hurt anyone and he was only young maybe 17 or 18 and i know what i was that age that money would of made a difference
"Jheez cheers dude i really appreciate that"
I gave him a smile and shut the door
I put the pizzas down on the table in the middle of the room and handed everyones pizzas out to them when there was two pizzas left on the table i sat back down next to luna and handed her the pizza i got her, i guessed and got her pepperoni.
"I said i'll just have some of yours gus" she said making me shrug
"I forgot" i said before taking a bite out of my pizza
"Thank you"
"Its cool" i replied still not looking at her.
I hope she doesn't think that i'm mad at her i'm just worried that i'll get fucked up one night and do something stupid and it breaks her or even she does the same but I can't see her doing that shes too nice. I can't do that i need to promise myself that and her.
After everyones finished eating me and tracy get back to recording some songs. I keep my eye on Luna whilst i'm singing itno the microphone.
Man shes so beautiful, i'm so lucky so have her i can't wait until shes finally mine and i can post about her and show her off to everyone
"Gus you alright?" Coldhart said looking up at me from the sofa with his laptop in his hands, i looked over to Luna to see her attention wasn't on her phone anymore it was on me we locked eyes i got butterflies in my stomach just like i did the first time i laid eyes on her at the party.
"Oh yeah i'm fine run the track again" i said making coldhart nod, i looked back towards Luna to see that she was gone she had walked out the room.
Oh no she must be mad at me
Luna
What is wrong with gus, why is he mad at me all of a sudden he'll just stare at me without saying anything then when i look at him he'll look away straight away hes acting childish like some elementary shit
I was texting cat telling her about whats happening and asking her what i should do.
Cat 💖
It's fine babe don't worry
don't stress, Bexey said that
he gets like this sometimes
you just have to give him
his space and he'll talk
when hes ready.
Me
I will but we haven't even started
whatever we have yet and he's
already mad at me
Cat tells me not to worry and that hes probably just stressed out with his music and stuff
I sigh looking up at the ceiling of gus's room its covered in graffiti and the letters 'GBC' infact its almost everywhere.
My thoughts were interrupted with the bedroom door opening revealing gus's face. He walked in and slumped on the edge of the bed with his back facing me.
"You okay gus?" I ask him shifitng forward so i was now sat next to him on the edge of his bed.
He didnt say anything but open his arms and bring me into a hug
"I'm sorry"
"What do you mean?" I knew exatly what he was talking about but i wanted him to explain what was a matter
"You know what i mean Luna" he said pulling away from the hug and facing me
"I've been off with you ever since i took them xanax, and no before you say anything no it wasn't the Xanax" he said grabbing my hands "i really like you Luna and i mean it i really do. I havent known you that long but you already mean so much to me i don't ever want to see you hurt especially hurt by me and i don't want to get hurt either" he looked me in the eyes grabbing my hands tighter, his deep brown eyes matching my blue ones.
"Gus i know what you mean, my past relationship wasn't exactly the best and i don't want to go through that again and especially not with you, you mean so much to me"
"I'm just a junkie i don't deserve someone like you" he said looking deep into my eyes"
"Shut up and kiss me"i said leaning in towards him and planting my lips against his soft plump ones.
he grabbed my waist and lifted me onto his waist so i was now sat on his lap straddling him, he slipped his hands up my top until he reached my boobs. His hands grabbed and squeezed them making a small moan slip out of my mouth
I wrapped my hands around his neck grabbing his coloured hair our lips still locked. It started getting heated soo he pulled away
"I don't want it to happen like this boo i want it to be more special" he said kissing me once more on the lips.
"I understand"
I wrote this at 5 in the morning, don't judge if it's trash please :)
