Forever Yours

Chapter 15

Lexa's POV

My mind has been racing ever since Clarke hung up. 'Is she ok? What happened, does it have to do with Finn? Why me?' All of these questions have passed through my mind while waiting for Clarke. 'Knock, knock,' the sound was faint but I know it means she's finally here. After opening the door I say Clarke standing there, tears streaming down her face. I didn't say anything and just pulled her into a hug. I heard the sound her he sobs as she cried. I felt absolutely horrible, I hate seeing Clarke like this, whatever her happened it must be big. After a few more silent minutes of crying she finally pulled away. I grabbed her hand and pulled inside of the apartment and over to the couch. "You don't have to talk about it, we can just put on a movie and eat ice cream," I tell her.

"No, i have too. It's important," she says, trying to hold back another wave of tears. I nod my head in return giving her all the time she needs to continue.

"I... I got home and... and Finn was already there," she starts off tears already forming. "We got into an... an argument, I tho... thought he was ch... cheating. I... went to find h... his coat loo... looking for his phone. In... instead I found something else," she says sobbing. I Immediately know what she means. 'The guy she loves is a drug dealer, someone we are trying to arrest.'

"Did he say no," I ask, looking for a little bit of hope in her eyes.

"No," she says no longer looking me in the eye.

"I'm so sorry Clarke," I say, pulling her into another hug.

"I told him we're done, and next time I see him I'll arrest him."

"I'm sorry that this happened to you, you don't deserve this," I say, still holding her tight.

"Thank you Lexa."

"You don't have to thank me. Now do you wanna watch a movie," I ask, and she just nods not moving from my arms. I put on Smurf's by Clarke's request, and we just lay there with her wrapped in my arms. "So... Are you going to tell my what's really going on with you and that Costia girl," Clarke asks randomly.

"Fine, well in high school I had a major crush on her. And a few days ago while you were in Arkadia, I went out to get a drink and she was there. After a few more drinks and some interesting dancing, we slept together," I answer, hoping she doesn't freak out at the fact I like girls.

Clarke's POV

'She's gay, and slept with Costia.' Repeats over and over in my head. I don't have a problem with it, in fact I'm bi, it's just... I don't know. 'Am I jealous?' I ask myself, knowing damn well I could be. I've been finding myself wanting to spend more time with her. The feeling I get when I'm around her is something I couldn't even begin to describe. Being around Finn is nothing compared to being around her. 'But that doesn't mean I like her like that, even if I did I couldn't be with her anyways, we're partners.'

"I'm sorry," I say, not knowing what else too.

"Don't worry about it, it was a one time thing anyway. What I felt arresting her can't be anything compared to how you feel with Finn right now."

'Right Finn, I guess Lexa just makes that feeling go away. I just want to be wrapped in her arms forever, the sense of safety and comfort is almost to much. I can't remember every feeling like this with someone.' I slap myself mentally as I keep thinking like this. 'It can't happen,' I tell myself. 'I have to move, if I stay like this any longer, I'm going to break.'

"I'll be right back, I need to use the bathroom," I say just to get away for a minute.

"Ok, I won't punch you if you try and scare me," she says while releasing her hold.

I slowly shut the bathroom door behind me and walked over to the sink. I cupped my hand under the running and splashed my face. I did the only reasonable thing I could think off and called my mom. "Hey mom."

"Hey Clarke, what's going on?" She asks, hearing my voice on the brink of crying again.

"I ended things with Finn, he was apart of a gang. I much rather he cheated on me." I say laughing a little.

"Oh Clarke, I'm so sorry. Do you want to come back, or me to come down." She asks.

"No it's ok, I'm with Lexa," I reassure her.

"Ooooooooh, who's Lexa," she's questions mischievously.

"My partner mom," I answer annoyed that she would think that.

"I give it a week."

"Mom, knock it off," I say getting more annoyed.

"So you do like her?"

"I don't know, you happy now mom?"

"Very, go get her. She sounds hell of a lot better than that bastard Finn."

"You only know her name."

"She still sounds better, goodnight, I love you."

"Night, I love you too," I say before hanging up.

A walk out a second later to see Lexa sitting up waiting for me. "Everything alright," she ask?

"Yeah, my mom just called," I say moving to sit down next to her. She gives me a slight nod a resumes the movie. "I'm bi you know," I say out of know where.

"Oh, ok?" She sounds confused.

"You came out to me, so I thought might as well come out to you." 'Even if I ever like her in that way I know she could never like me back. I mean look at her, she absolutely gorgeous,' I curse at myself again for think like this. I lay my head down at the other end of the couch and out my feet on Lexa's lap. Trying to create a little bit of distance, but at the same time wanting her touch. That's the last ting I remember Before falling asleep to Lexa's hand rubbing up and down my foot.