vinnie hacker ★ imagines

d e l e t e d

^^^^listen to the song while reading^^^^^
⚠️ TW: mentions of s*icide. ⚠️

You were currently sat in Vinnie's bed bawling your eyes out. It was daytime so you clasped your hand around your mouth hoping no one would hear you. Vinnie was in the backyard doing 'parkour' with the boys.
The faint noise of laughter coming from out side could be heard as your tears threatened to more rapidly. You know you had to keep quiet because Vinnie would hate it if he knew you were crying.

Why did no one like you? It seemed like everyday you were getting hate comments and dm's telling you to k*ll yourself. You and Vinnie both knew what you were getting yourselves into when you announced your relationship to the media. However, you never thought it would get this bad. Were you not good enough for him?

You stood up sobbing and walked to his bathroom. Standing in front of him mirror, your eyes scanned over all of Vinnie's writing to keep himself going. Your favourite had always been the one that says "I AM A KING." Your eyes then moved to your own reflection and you started thinking wether the "fans" were right. Maybe you were ugly, maybe you weren't good enough for Vinnie. The tears that were once pouring down your face suddenly started up again with the thought that you will never be enough. You bent your knees and crumbled down the the floor. The world crashing beneath your feet.

At that point Vinnie had made his way upstairs excited to see you and maybe even get you to stream with him. Walking into his room, you weren't in sight. That's until he heard faint crying coming from his bathroom.

You hadn't noticed that he had even walked in, when he sat next to you and wrapped his arms around you. The sight of seeing you so sad brought tears to his eyes. His chin was rested on your head as he continued to rub your arm. "shhhhh. hey its okay." He repeated over and over again, trying to figure out what had caused you to react in this way. Your breathing had slowed down and you were now only sniffing. His fingers made their way to your chin and he moved your face so you were forced to look at him. His eyes were full of sorrow and your eyes welled up once again.

"im sorry." You croaked out. You felt so guilty knowing that you have caused his pain. "its okay baby. just breath okay? can you do that for me?" The last thing Vinnie wanted was for you to have a panic attack. You nodded slowly and put your head on his shoulder.

-1 hour later-
You woke up in Vinnie's bed with his arms wrapped around your waist. You must have fallen asleep on his shoulder. Little did you know, Vinnie knew exactly what the cause of your breakdown was. He had looked through your phone (with good intentions) while you were asleep. He felt as if it was all his fault. You were always open to Vinnie about your body issues, so he knew how much the hate was getting to you.

Your movement caused him to open his eyes and immediately apologise. "Bubs, im so fucking sorry. But i promise it wont happen again." He looked at you with a promising look. "Why do you say that?" You asked weary. "Don't worry." He said brushing the hair out your face before hopping out of the bed and getting in the shower.
After about 5 minutes you decided to conquer your fears and check your social media, hoping somehow you could dodge some of the hate. You opened instagram to see that Vinnie was on tiktokroom. Your eyebrows furrowed as you read the post:

tiktokroom:

tiktokroom vinnie deactivated 😬☕️

Your mind was racing. Why would he do this? And how was he so calm about it? Tiktok is the reason he's in LA. Its the reason you are together. You couldn't do this. You ran out of the room and told Anthony and Avani, who were downstairs chilling. "please can you talk some sense into him?" You shouted like a deranged woman. "he told me he did it for you!" Anthony looked at me puzzled. " I didn't ask him to do this!" You said exhausted, throwing your body onto the couch. "Just talk to him okay? Im sure he has a good reason." Jordan said from the kitchen.

"Okay..." You said getting up and walking away. You couldn't deal with this. You couldn't be the reason for ruining Vinnie's current career.

part 2? also sorry for the lack of dialogue <3 -mel