-the next day-
I held onto my pillow, trying to feel as if I wasn't alone. As if Vinnie was here with me but It wasn't working. Tears rolled down my cheeks and my hand clasped around my mouth to conceal any noise I was making. My head pounded and my stomach grumbled because I hadn't eaten all day. Sobs wracked my body as I laid in my gloomy room, with closed curtains. Memories of cuddling Vinnie entered my mind and the agony escalated.
My phone buzzed. Shit. I don't want to speak to him right now. It'll make me sadder. I looked over at my phone with blurry eyes and saw his picture on the screen. I clenched my eyes shut and snuggled further into my bed. It was so painful to ignore him but I was so not okay. If my day was bad why should I make his day bad too?
Finally, my phone stopped ringing and I couldn't help but wonder his reaction when I didn't pick up. Sadness washed over my body once more and I couldn't help myself. I reached over to my phone and called him. I held the phone to my ear and took a deep breath.
"baby?" he asked.
"hi." I answered quietly. He went silent. He knew something was wrong. I let out a sob and completely broke down.
"hey, hey ,hey...its okay, you're okay.." he softly repeated to me.
"Its not okay! None of this is okay! Im not okay! I miss you so much!" I cried through the phone, finally letting my emotions be known.
"I get it! I miss you too..." he said.
"no you don't get it Vinnie." I told him the truth. He had an amazing family around him for what he needed support and I didn't.
"what? of course I do...we both miss each other?" he responded apprehensively. I let out a emotionless, breathy laugh.
"no...you have a loving family around you and I don't.." I sobbed further.
"what do you mean y/n? your family loves you too.." he said, sure of his judgment.
"they love me but I just can't bond with them like you do with yours. they judge me for everything I do." I told him. It felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I had never told anyone that.
"Im sorry baby..what can I do?" he asked sweetly.
"nothing really....anyways what did you call me for?" I asked.
"Its really good news! we can travel!" he exclaimed excitedly. My eyes widened in shock. Good shock.
"WHAT?!" I jumped on my bed. This was the best news I could get right now!
"yeah! and I was wondering if you would do the honour of moving to la with me?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing right now. I screamed and he chuckled.
"YES! YES! A MILLION TIMES YES!" I shouted into my phone.
"YAY! Okay im gonna go now but I'll face time you later so we can book flights together." He said. I fell back onto my bed with the biggest smile on my face.
"okay... love you baby. thank you for the best news." I said still in disbelief.
"bye beautiful." he said before I heard him kiss the phone and hang up.
I threw my phone onto my pillow and stared at my ceiling. Things were finally looking up. And I was moving to my dream place with my dream guy.
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hi guys! sorry I haven't been posting lately. I've had a tough week buttttt I should be back on track now! - Mel
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