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My cheek was so sore. I had been biting it a lot recently, its something I do when I'm stressed or sad. Sometimes I don't even realise that I'm stressed or sad, but I know because of the massive wounds in my mouth. The hate was finally getting to me and I had too many assignments missing. I was so overwhelmed and Vinnie doesn't know. I don't want him to know, I hate when I make people worry. It makes me feel like I'm a burden, like I'm the reason that they're sad or in pain. Its why I hate showing my emotions.
I walked to the big mirror in the bathroom and stared at my tired reflection. The stress was beginning to show and I couldn't control it. I sighed and looked down at the sink. Clenching my eyes, I wondered if life would get any easier or if I would feel this way for eternity. I opened my eyes and walked towards my bed. Slumping down, I opened tiktok and saw that Vinnie had posted on his pain account.
I wish I could be open with my emotions, but I was too scared that people would call me ungrateful. I mean I had over 1 million followers on tiktok and a beautiful boyfriend whom I loved a lot, but the pain was still there. Like I could never escape it. As these thoughts clouded my mind, I once again found myself biting the inside of my mouth. Sure, it was painful but the good kind.
I turned my phone off and made my way to the kitchen in my apartment. Oh yeah, that was another thing that I had to stress about, paying my damn rent. Anyway, I decided I would make myself a warm cup of coffee to freshen me up.
Just as I poured my creamer into my cup, I heard a knock at my door. I leave my coffee on the countertop and stroll to the door. Stood behind it was a smiling Vinnie.
"Hey idiot!" He said pulling me into a hug before kissing me on the forehead. The soft fabric of his hoodie and the scent of vanilla filling my nose was ethereal. I could hug this man forever. "Hello there, Vincent. How may I help you?" I said in a posh accent, pulling away from his embrace before going back to my unattended coffee.
He followed behind me and leaned against the countertop next to me. "Sooo...how are you?" He asked. "I'm fine." I said turning my head towards him, smiling. God, I was trying so hard not to break down right now. "Thats good. You wanna go skating baby?" He asked gesturing to the skateboard in his hand that I had just noticed. I didn't want to but I nodded anyway.
"YESSSSS LETS GOOOOO!" Vinnie shouted all of a sudden, picking me up and jumping around like a maniac. "Put me down stupid!" I yelped jokingly.
"Never!" He says running around my apartment making his way to my bedroom. He still had me in his arms until he playfully threw me onto the bed. "WOOOOOO!" He screamed jumping beside me. Why was he in such a good mood right now? I snorted and looked deeply into his eyes as our quickened breathes slowed down. His hand found the back of my neck as he pulled me in for a kiss.
His soft lips hit mine and butterflies formed in my stomach as we made out. Until he suddenly stopped and looked at my lips with furrowed brows. "What?" I asked confused. "Is there coming on my lips?" I asked self-consciously. My fingers found my lips and I looked at my fingers.
Blood. Blood from me biting my mouth. Tears welled in my eyes and I broke down. This was so embarrassing. I covered my face and tears dropped onto my bedsheets. Vin's big hand rested on my back and he started rubbing it.
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vinnies pov
What the fuck just happened? Why was she crying? I was beyond confused but I tried my best to calm her down. "Hey, its okay y/n. Calm down my love, what happened?" I said gently holding her. She didn't respond, sobs racking her trembling body. I knew what to do.
My eyes scanned the room for her laptop and I grabbed it. Turning her favourite movie on to distract her from whatever pain she was experiencing. It was Spirited Away, she loved it. I put her bedsheets over us and turned the volume up while laying her on my chest.
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Vin grabbed something and moved me onto his chest. What was he doing? My face was buried into his chest until I heard familiar music. And a voice coming from my laptop. I looked and sniffled.
He had put my comfort movie on.
I looked up at him with eyes full of love and tears. He smiled and pulled me in closer. I turned my focus back to the screen and we watched the movie in total silence.
My mind's pace had slowed down for the first time in a while and I felt at peace. I felt like all my problems had been relieved and I was right where I needed to be.
Vinnie is a true gift sent by angels.
