His hand was cold. Not warm like it was all those times I held them before. I opened my mouth to speak but i couldn't. Thats when a nurse walked in. "You can speak to him you know. He can hear you, don't worry." She patted my shoulder and reassured me before checking the machine Vinnie was hooked up too. "Is everything okay?" I immediately asked. She looked at me and smiled softly. "Yes everything is fine. I just have to check the machine. It's mandatory, im afraid." I suddenly felt stupid for asking.
The nurse finally left the room and i decided to speak. My warm hands held his cold hand and i look up at his lifeless face. I clenched my eyes. "You're dad told me that you were strong and that you will be okay.." I chuckled, tasting my salty tear drops before letting out a sob. "You know he didn't even panic because he really believes that you're going to be okay..." I opened my eyes, hoping that maybe his would be open too. They weren't.
My vision started to get very blurry from the tears welling up in my eyes. The slow beep of the machine and the low noise of chatter coming from the rest of the ward were overwhelming me. It felt like my head was about to explode. My breathing started getting heavier. And heavier. Until i finally felt as if i was gasping for air. I was having a panic attack.
One of my hands flew up to my chest so i could focus on my heartbeat. Vinnie was usually here to help me, not this time. It wasn't working. I was literally shaking. All of i sudden i felt movement. It was Vin's hand. It held mine for a second and flopped back down. He eventually held my hand again and I decided to use the beeping of the machine to focus my breathing. It worked. "oh my god." I whispered reluctantly. My face lowered and i kissed Vinnie's hand which was still holding mine tightly. "I need you. Don't you see? I love you...i can't lose you." At this point i thought that i should probably let the nurse know that his hand moved.
After i notified the nurse she told me that he was on the right track and that he should wake up soon. I walked over to Troy and Jordan and now Maddy and told them that we can speak to him. Maddy wrapped her arm around my shoulder and hugged me while we were walking to the room. "You good?" I looked up at her while she asked me. "I'm definitely better...his hand moved and the nurse told me that he should wake up soon." She smiled at me and said "If i know Vinnie, he's probably fighting to wake up right now." I nodded and hugged her further.
With Jordan and Troy in front of us they slowly swung the door open. My head bowed down and Maddy immediately shook me. I looked up. Vinnie was awake. I practically ran to him and jumped on him. I obviously didn't actually jump on him because he's probably in excruciating pain. He slightly chuckled and i went to kiss him on the cheek. Our foreheads met.
"I need you too..." He whispered. I smiled and kissed his lips.
"Don't do that again." I pouted playfully nudging his arm. "Why not? It was fun!" He said thinking we would laugh. None of us did. "Too early to make jokes?" He looked around the room for an answer and we all sorrowfully nodded. "Where's my phone?" I asked with a croaky voice. "Why do you want it?" Troy asked him.
"So i can see how my fans are.." I loved him even more when he said that. He literally just woke up from a coma and wanted to see if his fans were doing good.
"Im sorry dude but it broke when you got hit.." Troy said with his head down walking more towards the bed. "Fuckkk...so your telling me that i have to save up for a new phone too?" We all chuckled and nodded, knowing that he had spent the past few weeks saving up for a PC. "Yo, Jordan." He grabbed his attention. "Maybe its good that you didn't want to go skating with me?" He laughed which gave us all the okay to laugh with him.
Cracking jokes and making everybody laugh. That's how I like Vinnie.
i hope that was a good part 2 😎 - mel
