maniac

tragic

dekus pov
also i'm like changing the time line of things and having the sports festival happen after the whole bakudeku fight and then becoming friends
also i'm changing it to them having dorms like the entire time they're at UA so it's like a boarding school

"1"
i start walking closer to him

"i didn't think he'd hear—"

"2"
i'm in front of him now

"he was supposed to be in his dorm so—"

"3"
my hands are at my side

" i didn't even say his name—"

"4"
my fists are clenched, finger nails digging into my palms

"he's over reacting"

"five bitch" and then i punched him in the face using 17% of one for all

"how dare you say he's over reacting you insensitive dumpster fire" i yell as i go to punch him again but was stopped by iida standing in between the two of us.

"iida either you move or i'll respectfully beat your ass too"

"my apologies. uraraka i think it's best that we leave the two to solve this by themselfs."

the two of them leave and it's just me and fucking todoroki.

i tackle him to the ground and start punching. i was too fast for him to do anything. i don't care what i'm hitting as long as it's something on him. i'm still using 17% of one for all and i know that this must be hurting todoroki but i don't care. he fucking hurt my kachan. he made him cry. do you know how hard that is?

"izuku" i hear someone yell but i don't stop. i can't stop i'm too mad.

"midoriya" and i'm being pulled off of todoroki
it was present mic.

"what the fuck let go of me" i try to get out of his grip but he's surprisingly strong.

i take in my surroundings. i didn't notice how todoroki was almost unconscious and i also didn't notice aizawa standing there with kachan, iida, and uraraka. i guess iida couldn't help himself and told a teacher about what was happening.

"this is literally the second time this year you've got into a fight with a classmate midoriya what the fuck" aizawa asks

"aizawa you can't curse around the students dumbass" present mic yells. well it was at a regular speaking level for him but to everyone else it sounded like he was yelling. quirks are weird.

"you just did sir" iida chimes in
present mic realizes this and gives a sheepish smile

"whoops"

"anyways iida can you take todoroki to recovery girl? midoriya i'm sure you can walk there by yourself but have bakugou go with you just to make sure you don't try to kill anyone else on the way there. we can discuss this tomorrow i'm tired" aizawa says and walks away, present mic following him.

aizawa must have ran into bakugou after iida told him what was happening. i kinda wish he didn't see this though. he's gonna yell at me for this and probably say something like "i can fight my own battles". i know he can but fuck i couldn't control myself.

kachan grabs my arm and pulls me away from iida, uraraka, and todoroki and toward the direction of recovery girl. i didn't think i needed to go until i noticed how fucked up my hands had gotten.

"im sorry kachan"

there was no response, just silence. we walked in silence until we reached recovery girl. somehow iida and uraraka got here before us and todoroki had been healed. he was walking out when we arrived. he saw kachan and i and hesitated before walking up to us.

"bakugou...can we talk"
kachan visibly flinched at how close todoroki was. his breathing was ragged and i could tell he wasn't in any condition to have a conversation with him.

"todoroki could you fuck off into next tuesday please and thank you" i say and take kachaan hand, leading him into recovery girls room. todoroki seemed to not be able to take a hint and followed us into the room.

"i don't think i was talking to you midoriya i was talking to my boyfriend"

"well it doesn't seem like he's your boyfriend anymore does it? and even if he was you don't deserve him if you're gonna hurt him like this" i say

"bakugou.....we're still together...right?"

the tension in the air was thick. kachan stood there with his head down, unable to meet todorokis eyes or answer his question.

"like i said, kindly fuck off into next tuesday before i have to break my foot off in your ass"

he seemed to be able to get that through his thick skull and left the room. recovery girl came over and scolded me for hurting my hands again. i really should get better at controlling my newfound quirk. she healed me and sent me and kachan on our way. throughout the whole time kachan never took his eyes off the floor or said a word. he gets like this sometimes. he'll go nonverbal. it's something that came with his adhd. sometimes he just can't form words or doesn't feel comfortable enough to do so and he just goes mute. it only happens when he gets really upset or over whelmed. he's probably feeling both of those right now.

we make our way back to the dorms and we're standing infront of kachans dorm.

"do you want me to stay with you?" i ask knowing that sometimes when he's upset he doesn't like to be alone. he doesn't necessarily want someone to talk to he just finds comfort in someone's presence.

he shook his head no. he might want some space as he did just see me fucking up his now ex-boyfriend. i understand that but i didn't necessarily trust him to be alone.

"alright but can you stay here for a second i kinda left something embarrassing in your dorm last night" i lied once again

he looked confused but didn't object. i enter his dorm and close the door leaving him in the hallway. i look around his room until i find what i need and shove it into my pockets. i open the door and kachan walks in still visibly confused.

" i'm still really sorry about earlier by the way. i shouldn't have acted like that i guess"

kachans expression softens. he gives me a quick hug before pushing me out of his room and closing the door. he probably locked it too. normally most people would be worried about if he would be okay. i'm not saying i'm not worried but i know it's gonna take a while for him to be okay because today seemed to really affect him. it's okay though. i'm not worried about him hurting himself or anything. he can't. i took every sharp object and pill that he had in his room. i didn't want a repeat of what happened after the sports festival.

the sports festival was supposed to be a happy day. kachan was winning against all his opponents and was probably gonna win the whole thing. when he was fighting todoroki was when things started to go downhill. todoroki wasn't using his full power and that made kachan upset. once he had won they chained him to the podium and muzzled him. they put him in handcuffs too. he was freaking out, screaming and trying to break free. everyone just thought he was mad about not getting a fair fight but i knew what was really happening. he was having a ptsd attack. i knew he would sometimes get them because of when he was attacked by the sludge villian. i was attacked by him too but it didn't really affect me that much for some reason. maybe because he attacked kachan in a much worse way than he did me. after the ceremony kachan ran off to his doem and i followed him. i waited a few minutes outside his door but then i heard sounds that made me open his door. he was trying to overdose.

obviously he wasn't successful but i still took him to recovery girl who said he was fine since i had stopped him before he could do any damage and he has only taken about 15 pills. she still wanted him to go to the hospital and have his stomach pumped though so he did.

afterwards i found out about every mental illness kachan had. he had chronic depression since it came with his mixed type adhd and i knew he had some anxiety as that also came with adhd but i didn't know he had more than that. kachan has a major depressive disorder and social anxiety and generalized anxiety disorder and separation anxiety and a panic attack disorder. he also has anorexia which surprised me. he didn't seem like the type to have that but really nobody seems the type to have this many mental illnesses.