Rags And Riches

Things Got Heated!

Logan's Point of View!

I woke up with the biggest headache I've ever had.  My face was puffy and I felt drained.  The memories of last night flooded my brain letting me know everything I had hoped was a dream was reality.  I couldn't even fathom how everything went so far left last night but what I did know was I had to fix it.  I can't lose him.  I won't lose him.  I've never felt like how he makes me feel before in my life and I'm not ready to let that go.  I'm sorry I'm not.  I had a class today for my Bar exam and I'm in no mood for it today.  I haven't even been studying none of it and I need to pass my bar exam.  This is all I've been wanting since I graduated high school.  I got myself together and went to get dressed and then left for my class today.  I haven't been around my family in so long it's honestly like I'm just a visitor in my own home.  My class is 5 hours long.  After I finished my class I went to the Library and studied for the Bar exam.  I made sure I went over all my notes and everything we had already studied and class.  I also went online and looked up some questions that might be on the Bar exam.  

After studying I left the Library at around Five in the afternoon.  I decided to see if Michael wanted to hangout.  I needed someone to talk to anyway.  I called him to see if he was busy and he agreed to hang out.  He said he'll meet me at the restaurant. We both arrived at the same time. We decided to go to this nice restaurant in the village square.  It's nice but quiet and not too fancy. We sat down and started to talk. He told me about how Rosie wants to go out on a date and he needs me as an alibi tonight. I agreed which means we have to leave in a few. " Where are you taking her," I asked? " To the carnival and then maybe grab a bite to eat and a walk on the beach," Michael said. " Aww that's so cute," I said smiling. " Yeah what about you everything good with you and Mr. Toughguy," Michael asked. I thought for a minute. I don't really wanna bring him down when he's excited about his date tonight I'll tell him another time. " We're working on it," I said.

" What are you going to do tonight while covering for me," Michael asked? " I don't know. I'll find something. Probably study for my bar exam " I said drinking the smoothie I ordered. " Okay well I'll text you when I go home and we'll go from there," Michael said. I nodded my head. I looked at my watch and saw that it was six O'clock. " You should get going it's already six," I said. Michael agreed and went into his wallet pulling out money to pay for our drinks then he hugged me and left. I sat for a minute and then left. I had no clue where I was going to go so I decided to visit Luke. I mean trying to work it out with him will pass the time. We've got a lot to talk about.

I drove to Luke's house to see his car, not out front. However, it was a car in the driveway. It looked like Miss. Vanessa's car. I parked my car on the other side of the street and went to knock on the door. Less than a minute later Miss. Vanessa opened the door and let me in. " Hey is Luke here," I asked hugging her? " No, I was waiting for him. I have to go to work. He wanted me to drop off Izzy but he's not here yet. I have to go " Miss. Vanessa said. " I'll watch her till he gets home. Just go head " I said smiling. " Are you sure baby " Miss. Vanessa asked? " Of course. I needed to talk to him anyways and if he would have answered the door I doubt I would have got inside " I said. " Y'all work it out. I'm not playing. I like it. I'm not gone let y'all break up over dumb petty things " Miss. Vanessa said packing up her things for work. I walked her out the door and then walked upstairs to see Izzy. When I walked into her room she looked as though she was getting ready for a shower.

When she saw me she ran and hugged me. " Hey, Izzy. I missed you " I said smiling. " I missed you too. Where's grandma " Izzy asked? " She had to leave for work. I'll watch you until Luke gets home. Go head take your shower. I'll find us a movie to watch until your dad gets home " I said smiling. Izzy shook her head and went into the bathroom to wash up. I went downstairs and waited in the living-room for Izzy. While I was waiting Luke walked through the door. When he saw me he stopped. " Why are you in my house, " Luke asked throwing his keys down. I stood up. " We need to talk. Your mom had to leave for work. I told her I'll watch Izzy until you got home " I said looking at him. " It's nothing to talk about. You walked out. You left. We are done " Luke said walking past me into the kitchen. " Things got heated. We both said things we didn't mean. I just want to try and fix what's broken " I said following him. " I have nothing else to say to you. " Luke said grabbing water and walking upstairs to his room. I followed him. When we got to his room he sat on the bed. " Are you just going to follow me around my house? " Luke asked mad?

" Look you might not have anything to say but I have tons. You're being ridiculous I'm trying here " I said upset. " Your trying means nothing when you didn't try last night. I'm tired of you " Luke yelled. " We weren't getting anywhere last night anyway. All we were doing was arguing. I'm putting my pride to the side to fix it. Why can't you do the same " I asked yelling back? " Logan," A soft voice behind me said. We looked to see Izzy. " Hey baby I'm sorry did you need something," I asked seeing her in a towel. " I needed help brushing my hair," Izzy said. " I'll help you. Logan is leaving " Luke said standing up. " No offense daddy but I want Logan to do it," Izzy said. " Come on Izzy," I said walking Izzy to her room. I picked her out some pajamas while she lotions up and then I gave her the pajamas. She put them on and I sat down with her and brushed and braided her hair for tomorrow so it can be curly. After I tucked her into bed and she slowly fell asleep. Once I knew she was fully asleep I went back into the room with Luke.

When I walked in he looked as if he had just got out of the shower. He had a towel wrapped around his torso and he was looking for clothes. His body was amazing. And I knew I shouldn't have been looking but I couldn't help but look. His physique was amazing. Once I noticed him looking at me I turned around. " Is Izzy sleep? " Luke asked? " Yes," I said still facing the wall. " You can leave, " Luke said causing me to turn around and look at him. He had on shorts. " I'm not leaving. We need to talk " I said. " We don't have shit to talk about. I'm not your nigga " Luke said rudely. " Stop talking to me like that. Seriously, you're taking this too far " I said hurt by his comment. " Shit it's true," Luke said walking over to the bathroom. " You're pathetic. I don't know why I did this to myself " I say and begin to walk away. " I'm pathetic. You acted like you wanted to be with me from the jump. Sorry, I'm not one of your ass-kissing ass Princes who falls into your arms and kisses your ass because you think you're better than people " Luke said grabbing me pulling me back. " You are pathetic. You're so pathetic you let all the other women you messed with mess your head up into thinking that all women want to use you.  They messed you up so bad you can't see you got a real woman in front of you who's willing and wants to love you the way no woman could. I'm not going to keep getting my feelings hurt to pay for their mistake " I said raising my voice. 

" I never asked you to pay for anyone's mistake. I asked you to be real with me " Luke said grabbing my arms backing me into a wall.  " I was from jump. The only thing different about me is my status. I'm still the same Logan you met that day on the dark street " I said looking up at him.  " No, you are not.  You're a fucking princess " Luke yelled causing me to jump.  " You're a thug and I'm still trying.  I'm still trying to see the person I know " I said.  " Just go," Luke said moving away from me.  "Luke.  You expect me to walk away from the best thing that has ever happened to me?  You expect me to just give up on you? On us " I crocked because I was on the verge of tears.  " Man Logan gets out of my damn house," Luke said lowered.  " No. Why is it so easy for you to let me go?  Why are you doing this to me?  I didn't tell you one thing.  I never lied.  I just didn't tell you.  Don't you see why?  This is exactly why.  When I was going to tell you I was scared you would treat me like you are now.  I didn't want to lose the man I fell in love with " I said with tears falling.  I couldn't hold it in anymore.  Luke looked at me as his eyes got big.  " What you mean fell in love with, " Luke asked?  " I love you. I'm in love with you.  I don't know or care if you believe me but it's true " I said.

" How can you love someone but not tell them who you are, " Luke asked?  " I could ask you the same question," I said.  " I can answer it.  I don't love you " Luke said in the most hash tone ever and it was like my heart shattered a million times into my chest.  I could say anything.  I could feel the tears coming more.  I could feel the hurt in my heart.  I knew this is when everything I've ever thought that could be for us has completely gone away.  I don't love you.  the words play over and over in my head.  I was standing there for what felt like an eternity because I didn't know what to say without breaking down into a million tears.  He said it as he meant it and deein my heart I felt like he does.  There was no way I was leaving out of here with any chance of dignity. Luke knew he had my heart and he tore it apart with his bare hands right in front of me.  I snatched off the necklace I once was so proud to wear breaking it and throwing it on the floor.  One tear fell that he could see and I walked downstairs grabbing my keys and out of the door with a slam.  I drove to the beach got in the back seat and cried myself into a deep sleep.  I truly didn't care about anyone or anything at this point.