Laughter Of Insanity

Story 4 : Wrapped Tightly

A humble girl known as Taylor, she has parents who thought manners and respect, she always played a role of a good girl just to win her parents satisfaction, but it has never been enough for them to see their daughter as a humble girl with manners and esteem NO! they wanted her to be perfect and flawless, they never accepted the fact that she just wanted to be herself instead of pretending, they thought of raising her just as the way that they were raised which is abusing , intimidating and threaten he, but as soon as all that led to to mental and psychological issues such as anxiety and an obsessive compulsive disorders to get her stress and fears out . 

Even though the anxiety had grown through years, she's quiet about it , she never knew that she had anxiety until she went through the internet and searched about it, at first she didn't think that she actually has it, but five months later she did an anxiety test, she noticed that some of the test questions were so relatable, she saw the results, she wished she could blame her parents for what they have led her to, but guess what ?! she is the one who has anxiety not them, they wouldn't care less honestly.

One week later Taylor dressed all black , she wore a combat boots with black skinny jeans and leather jacket with black smokey eye make up and iron maiden shirt, she walked out of her house as fast as possible so her parents wouldn't see what she was wearing, when she finally made it to school, she entered the school gates that other students see it boring ,but she always sees the school gates as ignite gates and she always imagines the school as hell , everyone stopped talking and turned to her, silence filled the hallway few seconds later a student  broke the silence

'oh look !! the pathetic Taylor is wearing a trash!!' laughs filled the hallways and Taylor stood there with sleepy eyes and numb body 'ugh , you and your disgusting old stupid jokes !! so immature'  Taylor turned to him and snapped , he just stood there with his head pressed against the wall embarrassed, 'look at the trash ! she is finally standing for herself! nice try Taylor ! but you are still nothing but a worthless and a nerd!' a girl said to Taylor trying to get the best of Taylor or get Taylor into a fight , 'look at you Megan ! so pathetic ! you bully others and you think you're perfect! when you are nothing, I feel sorry for you though, you don't know real friendships or faith' Taylor said directly 'who the hell you think you are? speak about yourself ! you are the pathetic one in the first place' Megan snapped and slapped Taylor, Taylor didn't want to fight back , she's not the girl who's acting anymore, she's not the girl who cares about her grades anymore, manners and respect never exist to her, people are complimenting not respecting and those who made the words manners and respect are the ones who probably didn't define them clearly and people just compliment to get their benefits .

Taylor couldn't take the bullying that spread around school for the past couple weeks, she thought if she kept on being herself everyone will just leave her alone and stop bullying her ,but unfortunately it just got worse and worse everyday, none of her parents had actually cared about her ,her mother was busy and her father hangs out with his friends after work plus her sisters are young and they always fight , she doesn't separate them anymore NO! she just let them fight and she wouldn't care less, once again she couldn't take it so she has always wanted to be one of these characters that she wrote in her black note book , she looked at the long rope beside her that she used to play with as a kid, she thought of stopping the war in her head and the sarcastic laughs that has brought her to her knees and the mocks that had effected her mentally so she is finally there, hanging by her neck as her breathe gets heavier and heavier ,she doesn't want to breathe ,but her lungs are trying to breath uncontrollably ,but then everything went black , she blacked out , she left this world depressed and anxious, she left careless ,but scared of the other world.

But years later she was an only a girl in a book who commit suicide because of being a victim of bullying, she turned into a character in a book, she had been forgotten by the world, no one has cared, her family forgot her , bullies felt bad for awhile, ex-friends wished they had not left her, thought of 'the world would be better without me' was wrong because nothing has changed, it's the same miserable world, it's the same depressed girl in a book, no one dared to carry that book or open it because everyone knows that they are the reason behind her miserable life and how the rope was wrapped around her neck tightly .

They say that book was the library dusty with burned pages, they say it's full of stains of black tears as her signature .

-MAHA A.