HE TOOK MY VIRGINITY
I am Fatima, an advocate of women and children empowerment and protection program kaya alam ko ang rights ng mga babae at mga bata.
I am single since birth mapili kasi sila mama sa mga nanliligaw sa'kin kaya in the end I stayed single for years.
But since that day when I saw his smile in the program's party. I was attracted to him.
And I felt butterflies in my stomach when I heard that he was also an advocate of this program.
We had an eye contact and guess? I looked away because I can't ease those gaze of him.
Sino ba namang hindi maattract sa guwapo, maayos manamit at kasali sa mga ganitong programa.
After that day we've done an outside activity for street children.
We have given them foods and drinks.
Nagulat ako nang biglang may nakasagi sa akin at muntikan na akong bumagsak sa sahig.
Ngunit nagulat ako nang makadama ako na parang nasa bisig ako ng lalaki.
That's when I saw him staring at me. It feels like we're only the two in this place.
"Ayos kalang ba Fatima? hindi ka ba nasaktan?" tanong niya.
"Masaket..." maarte kong sambit.
"Este, I'm good, ayos na ayos, maraming salamat," wika ko saka nagmadaling umalis.
At dahil pauwi na rin naman napagdesisyunan kong maglakad na lamang dahil malapit lang ang bahay namin.
Ngunit may sumagi sa isipan ko. Bakit niya alam ang pangalan ko?
Is this freaking destiny? fate? is this forever?
Bumalik ako sa office namin at nagulat ako nang tumambad sa akin ang mga bulaklak, tsokolate at mga handwritten letters.
"Can I court you miss Fatima?" he uttered with his manly voice.
"Ah, ah yes." and yes my heart pumped like there's no tomorrow.
He started courting me...
We do fundraising programs together.
We played with children on the streets.
We ate food with beggars in the streets.
And all I can say that he is the one.
"Fatima, I am now asking you, Can you be my girlfriend?" he asked.
Sumagot naman ako nang mabilis. "Yes, Kyle. Yes na yes."
He kissed me and that surprised me.
We still do the things we've done when he's just courting me.
Pero nagulat ako nang dalhin niya ako sa isang kuwarto or should I say madilim na kuwarto na kami lang dalawa.
"Babe, let me in. Let's make it." he uttered with his husky voice.
"B-but?..." Hindi niya na ako pinatapos.
"No more buts, if you love me let's make it," he said then started doing things to my body.
It hurts. When he entered me. When he took my virginity.
But after that day...
He didn't went to see me.
Hindi niya na ako tinawagan at parang kinalimutan niya.
Then I asked myself? Bakit kasi hinayaan kong pumasok ang ganoong tao sa buhay ko?
Weeks passed. Naduduwal-duwal ako so I took pregnancy test.
When I saw the two red lines my tears burst out.
I can't tell this to my parents.
So I immediately called him. "Babe, nasaan kana? buntis ako."
"So anong gagawin ko? kung aya mo yang batang yan ipalaglag mo nalang,"
And that really made me cry. Ginawa namin itong dalawa pero ako lang mag-isa ang haharap sa lahat ng hamon.
I thought it's love but he just took my virginity.
