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𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 - 𝐣𝐚𝐭𝐩

Julie sat in studio. Tears flooding her eyes, looking at her place, there place. She longed for them. She missed them. They had only been gone for a week and she felt alone. The most shes felt alone in a really long time. She was so used to having her boys around her all the time. And now there was nothing. She stood up and as a spur of the moment she screamed.

She yelled. She kicked the furniture. It was like everything she loved, it disappeared. She wanted love that wasnt gonna leave her. Of corse she had and loved her dad, flynn, and carlos, but what she felt with her mom and those boys, her boys were completely different. It was like they understood her in a way the others couldnt.

"Whyd you have to go away, whyd you leave me" she screamed out, tears flooding out her eyes. She stopped for a second looking over to there space. The place where they practiced for hours on end. The place where she relearned to do something she loved so much. The place where she had her favorite people. She walked over and grabbed all ther guitars, drumsticks, everything she could and held it close to her as she slid on the floor. She held it tight. Afraid that she would wake up and realized everything was a dream, but she wasnt sure if it was a bad thing or not.

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3 months. It had been three months since they disappeared out of her life. She wasnt even sure if the had crossed over or not but they were gone.

Julie has been living these past 3 months in a disguise. Everything she had showed was fake. Her smile, her energy, everyhting. Not only that but she distant her self from everyone. Flynn, nick, her dad, even Carlos. She was scared if she had shown them anymore love they would disappear too.

She spent her days in the clouds. Never really focusing in her classes. Looking out the window, paying attention to the small things. The stuff out there seemed to grab julies attention more then what they were learning inside.

She smiled sadly when ever she saw something that reminded her of her boys or her mom. Like dahlias, the kind that her mom loved, or the ones that where placed on lukes moms tabel the day she found out who emily was.

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Five months. Its been five months. People thought she was fine cause of her mask when infact she wasnt. She was broken but even if they knew they probably wouldnt even care.

So because people didnt know, boys took there shot. They never succeeded but they tried. It was quite annoying due to the fact she was still in love with a dead man, but that wasnt the only reason she never said yes.

She was so scared to love someone else who wasnt her family for so long she forgot. She forgot what it was like to let a boy in to her heart. So when luke re-introduced her to the feeling she only learned one way, it being the way that her and luke showed each other. Through music.

She never felt that connection with any of the boys at her school. They all only seemed to be in it for the fame and money julie had gained from the bands performances. So she never said yes.

If she was gonna trust someone with her heart again, she wanted to make sure they where in it for the long run.

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It had been officially a year. One year since she had met her boys. It was three in the morning. She sat outside by her window, on the roof. Her legs pulled up towards her chest, her arms wrapped around them, tears making traces down her face.

She wondered where they where. Where the allowed to eat? Did they drink any water. Did luke ever take breaks from song writing to spend some time with his best friends. Where they together? Where they alright?

The horrible thought of them being separated crossed her mind and she hated it. That they could be apart from each other. Non of them could take that hurt, julie thought. They where to close to make it on there own. They where each others family. They where her family.

"There alright" she whispered to herself. "Im Alright" she whispered again, her voice shaking, as her body. She closed her eyes and hopped they where alright.

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A year and three months. It had been a year and three months. She started letting people back into her life. She had broken down infront of flynn and then flynns heart broke. Flynn knew she was hurting but not this much. She took her once pieced together, now broken to pieces of a best friend and held her close. She wanted too see her happy, and she knew it was gonna take her a long time.

Julie was back in the studio again. She had started to write and sing which was a big step for her. Every now and then she would look around the loft, and smiled.

She smiled at there memories. She wrapped her arms around her self, as if she was giving someone a hug but it was just her.

"Your just harder to see then most"  she said softly.

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She smiled as she took there cd out. She finally put there demos into a cd, just like they said they would way back. She designed the cd and everything, it was the original design they had planned.

On the cover, in bold words it said there band name with a small ghost with a flower ontop of her head infront which represented jule. And on the inside, the cd matt black with three small ghosts, one with a lil bag and drum sticks, one with a base guitar, and another one with a electric guitar obviously.

She put the cd in the player and danced around waiting for the one song she loved, her favorite even.

Bright.

I dont think i even have to explain why, but When it came on, a big genuine smile spread on her lips. There song.

She danced alone, hoping they would be there dancing with her.

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Today was the day they had disappeared so of course julie had cried all day. She remembered she never got to say a proper good bye. Cause when she came back to the studio, they where gone. It hurt.

She knew at some point she had to move on. To allow her self to let someone new into her life to fill that void they left empty. But it was a big space, and they had to be there 115% the whole time, just like she would for the new person, who ever that was gonna be.

Julie walked to the studio and spent the night. She had a lot of free time so she had learnt to play a couple of the instruments that had been left there. She played with the chords on the guitar that she knew.

"Baby whyd you have to go away, im still your girl

Head up in the clouds, hevan only knows where you are now

How do i love how do i love again

How do i trust how do i trust again" she sung softly, messing around with the lyric she had came up with.

"Maybe you start by trying with us again"

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October 26

I wrote this at 4 am :D
I need to stop lmao i have schooool also the amount of times i cried when i Wrote this is not alright.
I dont even know if its actually sad and im just delusional but ill let u be the judge of that.

Okay ima get some rest.
Also part 2 will be coming soon okie bye