My 1D Brothers

Depression Isn't Funny Either

Niall POV:

I looked over at Erika. We were walking back to the hotel from Brendan's and she had some of his stuff. She held it close to her chest.

We got back and I opened the door. The boys were just hanging out, talking. Erika and I went into our room and Erika started looking through the stuff she brought back. She touched her necklace a few times. 

She put the stuff away and sat on my lap. I wrapped my arms around her small body and she hugged me back. Liam opened the door and saw us. His face turned sad when he saw how upset Erika was. "Pizza?" he asked but Erika shook her head no. I told him, "Plain pizza's good." and he nodded.

I rubbed Erika and said, "All you need is a Horan Hug." and she hugged me tighter. She looked up at me and said, "I'm so depressed. I can't even breathe without thinking that he could still be breathing if it wasn't for me. I'm full from a guilty and sad feeling. I can't sleep." 

She was in stage one of depression, possibly going on to stage two. The boys and I had to pull her out of it.

"Why don't you go and wash up? You'll feel a little better. Then we can have lunch." I said and she got up. "I doubt I'll be able to eat."

Zayn POV:

Niall came into the mini living room and sat down, running his hand through his hair. "Everything alright mate?" I ask but he shakes his head. 

"Erika's in the bathroom washing up." Niall said and I laughed. "Can't stay away from her for too long?" I laughed. All of us know that Niall has feelings for Erika. 

"She's depressed. And by that, I mean she's going through depression." he said and my smile turned into a frown.

"What do you mean? Is it because of the car accident?" I asked and Niall nodded. "She's going through stage one or two. Watch, she's not going to eat lunch. She's not going to sleep. She's breathing quickly. She feels like she shouldn't be breathing if Brendan's not breathing." Niall said and that's when Erika came into the room. She was breathing really quickly, as if she doesn't want to breathe.

The doorbell rang right as Erika sat down on the sofa with her legs stretched out towards Niall. She wiggled her toes at him a bit, her eyes with a glazed look in them. 

Niall grabbed two slices of pizza. One for him, one for Erika. He was planning to make her eat.

She sat there, leaning on the arm of the sofa and when Niall set the plate down on her lap, she shook her head.

"I'm not hungry." she said with no expression on her face. "Please eat, Erika." Niall said and put his hand on her knee.

Erika just shook her head. Niall tore a little piece off of her pizza and wiped the grease off of it. "I know you don't like the grease." he said while doing it and Erika watched him wiping all the grease off, and her eyes softened. So when Niall looked at her and brought the piece of pizza by her mouth, she opened her mouth and ate it.

Niall smiled and there was a small hint of a smile at her lips.

Erika POV:

I can't eat. I won't. I'm too full with emotions. I thought as Niall brought over a slice of pizza to me. 

I told him I wouldn't eat it, but he tore a piece off and started wiping the grease off.

I watched him working intently to get all the grease off just for me and my heart softened. 

Instead of eating his own pizza, he's wiping the grease off of mine and feeding me. I opened my mouth and he put the small piece of pizza in my mouth. I chewed slowly and all the boys watched me. I haden't eaten anything in a while and the pizza was good. No grease on it, just the way I like it.

The boys watched me until I gulped down the piece. I looked at Niall and opened my mouth. He smiled his special smile and wiped all the grease off the rest of the pizza. He got closer to me and tore off little pieces of non-greasy pizza for me to eat.

I finished a whole slice and had water to drink. The boys ate their pizza, and more pizza. I sat on Niall's lap. It felt good. But I knew that I was still in love with Brendan, and that I was prone to something bad if I dated Niall. But I couldn't help but think about it.

author's note....

kinda a filler...sorryyyyyy :/

so this kid kevin was really mean to me over text and he almost made me cry cuz he said that my crush doesn't like me cuz im disrespectful......he doesn't even know that I like brendan. That idiot.

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thanks everyone for reading, commenting, and voting :) xoxo-Eri