Oxford Boys

30. Grams

Before I head for the shower, I decide to give Grams a call. We made out to call every weekend. Looking at the clock I hope it's not too late in the evening. Thank god I have a long charging cord for my phone otherwise I'd be stuck next to the socket. Just to gain enough power without it turning off right away, I wait ten minutes for it on fast charge. Grams picks up after the third ringing, she must have been waiting.

"Hey Sweetheart, you back this late? Your phone was off I was worried."

"I'm fine Grams, I still had some homework to do with Jake and my phone had died out."

"Who's Jake? Someone you met at college? Is he your boyfriend?"

Typical Grams, ever since I turned eighteen, Grams has been looking out for someone I could marry and settle with. I have to chuckle that this is our first topic of the night.

"How about I tell you about my college first?", I suggest as I am not sure how to tell her this is my Jake and not a new Jake. I shouldn't have mentioned him in the first place, stupid me didn't think straight.

We talk for a whole while about my classes, about Oxford and my work. She tells me how my grandpa went to Oxford too and how proud he would be. To be honest I don't know much to say about that, because my grandpa died when I was only two years of age, so it's not like I have many memories about him. I nearly thought I could jump that part with Jake and say good night as my Grams starts off again.

"Alright Sam, tell me about this boy, you are very good in trying to find your way out. But I know you too well Sweetheart. So, tell me about this Jake." The hopeful tone, tells me she is rooting for the whole package including great grandchildren in her head already.

"Grams, you know who Jake is. It's Jacob Baker, we have classes together."

I hear her gasp at the other end. "Oh my lord, Sam stay away from that devil. Please tell me you are staying away from him."

Of course, I knew she wouldn't like it, but I am not going to lie to her after all she's the one who took me in five years ago. She bought a small house for us, after mum died and I owe her so much.

"Grams you know I hated Jake the last five years. But things have changed, he has changed and he feels really bad about what happened to me."

"Sam stay away from him, you hear me."

"I can't Grams, I really tried to, but you know I always loved him before everything happened, you know we were inseparable. And we somehow still seem to be the same, as much as I tried to stay away from him and hate him, I can't. Besides we have classes together and even sit right next to each other."

"Perhaps you should change classes then", Grams voice sounds ice cold, I have never heard her like this.

"I don't want to change classes, you know this has always been my dream. And Grams I love Jake, as much as I didn't want to, I can't change my feelings."

"You listen to me carefully now Sam, end it now. Him and his family are nothing but trouble, they have destroyed our lives. So, end it no discussion."

I knew she wouldn't like it, but I never thought she'd react this harsh. This is not my typical sweet grams. She sounds so full of hatred and anger.

"I'm sorry Grams, but it's my decision and I am giving Jake this chance because I want him in my life again. If you don't like it, you will simply have to deal with it."

"Don't you dare talk to me like that Samantha, you have no idea about this brat", she nearly spits it like venom.

This is too much, I cut the call off. Damn I love my Grams I really do. But she was going too far and I didn't want a huge fall out with her. She's even more stubborn than me and she wouldn't have stopped ranting about Jake, something I just don't want to listen to right now. It's been hard enough getting my mind wrapped around this shit myself, but now I know what I want. I want Jacob Baker back in my life, no matter what she says, it won't change the fact that I love him. And after all these years of misery and pain, I just want to feel happy for once.