Colby was about to turn around but Sam tugged on his wrist.
"Please...don't leave..."
"Sammy...baby...were not...good...for one another..."
"Do you seriously mean that?"
"No...i don't...but I'm not good for you. My anger is getting so bad..."
"I can f-fix it...like i always do..."
"This will just happen again sammy..."
"It hurts...please....nothings working...not the drinking. o-or the haunting memories i constantly think of, or the constant thought of you, or katrina or jake or tara, or corey or elton or dev. nothing and nobody helps, but even just seeing you today. Even though you look broken, and tired and i caused that. I don't feel as broken, i don't feel as sad in this moment because you are here and you're the only one who can help me. God even Allison and Ben did nothing but make me feel worse! I know this is selfish Colby, but you're the only one who can fix this. Fix me Colby, please...you're the only one can..."
"Sam..."
"Please...i wanna feel okay again..." Sam pleaded, holding back his sobs.
"You will in time..." Colby rejected, flipping a switch inside Sam.
"What are you so afraid of! I'm right here, pouring my heart out to you and begging you to come back! Why are you running away from me!"
"I'm terrified im gonna let my anger take control and you won't be able to pull me back from the edge and i'm gonna leave a physical fucking mark and not just an emotional one sam!"
"I don't care about that!"
"I do Sam! I can't hurt you!"
"You're the only person who is..."
"I can't hurt you anymore than i already have..."
"You walking away will permanently hurt me! I will never want to love anyone else! I don't even think I'm capable of love! But you, you're the only person i feel good enough for! You're the only one i feel loved by! Nobody will ever be able to replace you and i know you expect me to replace you when you walk out but it won't happen! So don't walk out, don't leave! Stop running from me and fight for me god dammit! I'm right fucking here, Colby!"
Sam let go of Colby's wrist.
"Fight with me, not against me."
Sam looked down. Colby was speechless, how the hell did he get this lucky? And to let it go? For what? His own paranoia?
"I can't make up your mind for you Colbs. But i need you, and i can't lose you. But if it means you're okay in the end then...then i'll live with it."
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Haunted Memories || Solby ✔️
FanfictionThey were best friends, since they were six years old. Ten years of friendship and five years in a relationship thrown down the drain, for what? Well, that's easy: unresolved issues, left unsaid problems, quieted and looked past opinions. Now all bo...
