Haunted Memories || Solby ✔️

Eighteen-Sam

"I can't make up your mind for you Colbs. but...i need you...and...i can't lose you. But if it means you're okay in the end then...then i'll live with it."
Sam was breaking inside. He didn't want to live with the idea of Colby being gone, but he was going to have to and he knew that when Colby didn't respond. Sam turned around and walked inside. He shut the door and walked off into the living room. He didn't hear the door open, he didn't hear Colby walk to him, he didn't realize anything was happening until he was pinned to the wall by Colby, but not violently.
"I can't lose you, i don't want to, i won't survive. I've barely survived two weeks. Brennen has had to push me into showers fully clothed and threaten me to get me to eat or drink. I know other people can fix me, that's common fucking knowledge. But without you, there's no point in fixing a goddamn thing if everything i do is for you. You mean everything to me. You are the only one who can fix me. I said shit i didn't mean, it wasn't me. I'm a different person when my anger strikes but you've always seemed to bring out the best in me, you calm the beast inside of me. Without you i'll go on a rampage. I can't lose you either but god im terrified of hurting you Sam. I'm so fucking scared. I can't even fathom the mere thought of hurting you, you're my literal world Sam."
"Then why are you leaving me..."
"I don't want to."
"Font.."
"I can't hurt you..."
"We'll get you help, okay? We'll do something but i can't, i just...not again..."
Sam looked down, closing his eyes tightly.
"Hey..."
Colby lifted Sam's chin slightly, tears falling down both faces. Elton quietly entered the apartment followed by Corey.
"If i ever hurt you, dont let it slide."
Sam nodded.
"Im serious."
"I know."
"What do we do now..?"
"Talk..."
Colby nodded before pulling Sam's body into his. Corey and Elton left, they felt the boys needed to be alone. Then the boys moved to the couch and talked.

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