obsidian. [ninjago siblings]

Voicemail

Kai held the phone shakily to his ear, tears falling down his face as he silently cried.

He waited for the same tone he'd been getting ever since she passed.

"This person cannot reach your call. To record a voicemail, press 1. To send a message, press 2."

The fire elemental took uneven breaths while his finger hovered over the number 1, staring at it, as if it was his last chance to get to say goodbye, although he was well too late now.

He pressed it gently and sobbed, holding his pillow close to her.

Before talking to the girl that made him who he was, he looked at the clock. 3:12am in the morning. He had been awake for far too long already.

But could he even get sleep?

Kai didn't care, instead, he began talking.

"H-Hey sis.." He choked out, looking down onto the mattress sheet below him and seeing it soak with tears.

"I-I know this is..this is so late..a-and I'm so sorry for not saying anything sooner..I just.."

He swallowed, a small whimper of despair following. "It's just be so h-hard without you. I can't do anything anymore..I.."

The brunette cut himself off by grabbing the blanket that Nya liked the most and clutched it tightly in his free hand, despite his very evident shaking.

"I remember the first time I saw you.."

"Kai, say hello to your sister Nya."

"Ooh!"

"A-And how I looked at you..and I said..'Even though I'm only two, I promise to protect you.'"

"Even though I only two..I pwomise to protet you!"

"Aww.."

"A-And the day out parents were kidnapped..I-I remember it all.."

"Mommy!?"

"S-Shh big brother, I here.."

"It just goes to show you put the people you were close to first..even when you were suffering to."

"S-Sissa please go sleep..I miss mommy and daddy too.."

"Not sleep until you sleep too and you safe!"

"All the sleepless nights slowly turning into blanket fort nights.."

"Kai.."

"Can't sleep? Get the blankets."

"B-But..what broke my heart the most is seeing you getting bullied..w-when you didn't deserve it at all.."

"Sis what's wrong?!"

"S-She said that-that the reason why our parents were gone is b-because I was too much of a crybaby and a brat!"

"A-And how we'd use to hug each other when we were scared.."

"I-I'm scared..I'm so, so scared.."

"S-Shh..we're gonna get through this.."

"It always used to hurt me so much whnen you were upset..b-becuase I felt like I failed as a brother to keep you safe.."

"I-I'm not safe..I'm not safe..I'm not safe here.."

"Oh sis, shh..you are, it's just you and me. You're big brother's here, it's okay."

"When..w-when Garmadon and the skulkin kidnapped you..I-I know that you would get through it, you're so strong..b-but it still hurt to see you being tossed around and nearly killed because I couldn't keep an eye on you.."

"I can..get..out of..this! It's too tight.."

"Stay there, I'll come to get you!"

"The reason why I wanted you to stay at the bounty most of the time was because I was so, so scared for you. I- didn't wanna lose you too, not after you were taken away from me. I-I'm sorry, it sounds like an excuse but I swear it isn't."

"Why can't I ever do any of this?!"

"Because..because.."

"S-Something else that I've also regretted was not letting you date Jay. You two are meant for each other..h-he's so distraught.."

"But why? Why can't I date him?!"

"Becuase you're too young and vunerable!"

"I'm so, so sorry..I wish I let you do all of that now.."

"You're the samurai?!"

"Girl power.."

"B-But what hurt be the most..was when I left. After Zane's death. I left you, and I promised never to."

"Kai, your sister is heartbroken!"

"Voicemail again.does he even care about her anymore?"

"Of course I care about you! I'm so so so so sorry for leaving, I-I-I know how much it hurt you and I'll never forgive myself!"

"Y-You left me! You told me you'd never leave me!"

"I'm so sorry..I..I.."

"A-And I broke my promise again when you died..e-even if it was a different timeline..I still feel so guilty."

"Shh shh Kai. I know, I know."

"Y-You actually..you actually.."

"You always gave me comfort when I needed it..even if we both felt like the lonliest people ever.."

"Kai..can I have a hug?"

"I want one too."

"You even helped me when I was angry.."

"He's a traitor!"

"He's still our father!"

"Even though you didn't need to be here for me..you were..no matter how far apart we were."

"Even if Kai's dead..like Lloyd said..I-I hope he's safe and happy up there." (This sentence made me cry.)

"..He lived a horrible life..but kept smiling.."

"When Lloyd told me you said that..I generally started crying too.."

"I-I missed you so much! I had to tell mom and dad face to face!"

"Shh shh..I'm here now."

"You're so strong for fighting for so long..not knowing I'm alive.."

"D-Don't leave me..no..sis please..n-no!"

Kai cries harder, pulling his knees up to his chest while his shaking became more prominent and concerning.

"You saved my life, sis. You really saved me." He whimpered, holding onto her blanket tighter.

"But I couldn't save yours.."

"..And it hurts me so, so much that someone I've known before I could tall properly would save my life." Kai let all his emotions out now, not caring if he woke anyone up.

"I'm so sorry you didn't get to walk down the isle! I'm so sorry that you didn't get to have kids! I'm sorry I was such a bad brother! I'm sorry I was never able to save you!" He screamed, sobbing hysterically and shaking violently.

"I-I'm gonna miss-miss you so..so much s-sis..y-you..you go have fun up there. Go play snowball fights, go and run around and act like the kid you could never be..just, whatever you do.."

"Don't forget me..please..?"

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Sobbing as I write this

okay im sorry