My Psycho Boyfriend

Chapter 41

Jimin staring at the mirror and sigh. He looks around the dance studio and it empty. It reminds him of her. Where she dance and where he held her waist to keep her close. He misses all that.

But, the scene where he abused her and hurt her, appeared in his mind. He clenches his fist and angry with himself. He hates his inner self. He can't control himself and hurt the person that he loves the most.

"Jimin?" A voice brings him to come back to his sense.

Jimin turns his back and saw Alex. He can see old wounds on his lips, obviously by Jimin. 

"What are you doing here?" Jimin asks coldly.

"Jimin, I know you don't want to see me-" Jimin cuts him off.

"If you know then why you still want to see me?" Jimin asks.

"Because I want to talk with you about...Rose." Alex answer.

Jimin stops his movements. He looks at Alex with a blank face.

"What with her? What do you want again from her?" Jimin asks.

"I want to say sorry. I know I shouldn't take what is belong to someone already. I'm really stu*id." Alex chuckles weakly.

"If you didn't confess that time and meet her at the cafe, she wouldn't change." Jimin clenches his fist.

"I know. It was my fault. Not yours. I'm sorry, Jimin." Alex looks down.

"Apologized..." Jimin breathing heavily and tries to hold himself from beat him.

Jimin walks towards him and Alex ready to take the hit. He closed his eyes-

"....WOULDN'T CHANGE ANYTHING!!!!!!!" Jimin yells. Not only that, Alex startled by the sounds of glass broke.

He lifted his gaze and found Jimin standing in front of himself, catching his breath. He turns his head and saw his fist punched the mirror. Blood starts to slide down in the mirror.

"You better go now, Alex. Before I lose myself." Jimin gritted his teeth.

Alex looks at him with sad expressions. He nods slowly and moves his legs to the door. Before he went out, he glances at Jimin. The door closed and Jimin fell to his knees.

He holds his bleeding knuckles and tears start to fell from his face. He just wishes that Rose back in his arms. He suffers enough.

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Rose cleaning the kitchen and put the last dishes on the table. She huffs in tired. She takes off the apron and put it away. She staring at the food that she knows Jimin will love it.

"At least, being nice with him once in a while." Rose mutters.

Then, she heard the door opening. She knows it Jimin and she walks to the living room. 

"You come home late today." Rose says. 

Jimin didn't answer but just nods. He put his coat on the couch and Rose walks closer to him. Because she knows, when he silence like this, it must be something wrong.

"Jimin?" Rose calls.

Jimin turns around and gives her his eye smile but she knows it fake. She furrows her eyebrows.

"How are you doing?" Jimin asks.

"Fine. Food already is done. You can go and eat." Rose walks past him and about to walks upstairs but he calls.

"Rose." Jimin calls.

"What?" Rose asks.

"You're not eating?" Jimin asks. His voice sounds broke and desperate. Rose turns her body to looks at him.

Her eyes slowly going down and landed on his knuckles. Rose slightly widen when saw wounds on it. 

"What happened to your hand?" Rose asks with frowns.

Jimin flinched when she asked that. He hides his hand behind and clears his throat. 

"Just..J-Just a small wounds." Jimin answer. 

Rose narrows her eyes. Maybe she becomes cold-hearted now but there's still sweetness and softness for Jimin because she still loves him.

"You are lying." Rose walks toward him slowly.

"No!! N-No, I'm not." Jimin fights back.

"You wouldn't be shuttering if you're not lying." Rose says.

Rose takes step forward steps and Jimin takes a step back. They did that until Jimin back hit the wall. Usually, it happens to girls but not in change.

Jimin breath hitched when his back hit the wall and Rose is in front of him with her serious face. She moves more close and their nose almost touches. Little did he know, Rose heart beating so fast. 

Both of them could hear their heart beating so fast. Without realizing, Rose holds his bleeding hand and look at it.

"Is this what you call nothing?" Rose asks.

"I...um..." Jimin lost his words.

Just one more step and their nose will touch. Then, just one more step again, their lips will touch. She can see Jimin cheeks become red. Rose tries to hold her smile and looks down with a blush. 

Cute

"Well, let's treat your wounds first." Rose brings her to the couch.

She makes him sits and goes takes the first aid kit. She sits beside him and Jimin just staring at her with an unexpected expression.

"What did you do?" Rose asks. She treats his hand carefully.

"I...I p-punch the mirror." Jimin answers while locks his eyes on her.

"Why are you doing that?" Rose asks.

"Because...I'm mad at myself." Jimin answer honestly.

Rose stops her work. She shocks to hear his answer. 

"I'm angry at myself because of hurting you. I hate myself. I hate the fact that I couldn't control myself." Jimin let it out.

"How I wish I can go back in time and change everything. I want to be happy again. Now, I know how it feels. I know how it feels...losing you." Jimin added.

"You didn't lose me. I'm still here." Rose says.

"No. You're not here. I already lose you." Jimin says.

"Jimin!! I'm here!!" Rose raises her voice.

"You're not. Rose that I know is sweet and soft. She's gone." Jimin says.

Rose lifted her gaze and meet his eyes. She can see guilty and blaming himself in his eyes.

"It all because of me. She is just has gone like that. She leaves me here alone with the cold Rose. It makes me suffering. I hope she's coming back because I know how she feels before. I regret it." 

"But now...I can see that...she will never come back. No matter how hard I wish or try." Jimin says.

Rose froze at her position. His words hurting her heart. If she can, she wants to cry and hugs him but she doesn't know why she can't.

CONTINUE~