My Psycho Boyfriend

Chapter 40

Once again, Lisa bought food for him. She opens the door and saw he lay on the couch, watching movies. 

"Jungkook, I bought you lunch. I wouldn't stay too long because I have a lot of work" Lisa says.

Jungkook feels sad that he couldn't hang out with her again like before. He looks down with no emotions. He nods slowly. Lisa notices his sad expressions. 

She knows she hurt him but she is still scared to get back with him. She sigh. She walks toward him and kneels in front of him. She leans her hands to his forehead and feels his temperature. Jungkook shocks by her sudden touch. 

"It still hot. I will come back after I finish my work. Take enough rest." Lisa stands up.

"You...You will come back?" Jungkook asks.

"Yes. Make sure you eat your medicine." Lisa says.

Jungkook nods. Lisa takes her bag and walks. But, Jungkook voice stops her.

"Lisa..." Jungkook calls.

"What?" Lisa asks.

"Why you still care and come back to me?" Jungkook asks.

Lisa flinched at the question. She looks down and bites her lips. She doesn't know what to say. She doesn't know what to reply. 

"Why? Why you don't just leave me dying here?" Jungkook walks toward her.

"You don't like it?" Lisa asks.

"I don't like it when you pity me and not care because of love." Jungkook says.

Lisa turns around and frowns. "What?" 

"I don't need your pity. I rather died here. A monster, psycho like me don't deserve your pity." Jungkook looks down.

"I do not pity you. I just...do what my heart tells me to do." Lisa reply.

"Then, why your heart didn't tell you to get back with me. I need you. Every time I woke up, I wish I could see your face first. But, now everything is changing so evil.  I know it my fault. I hurt you. I never show you the love that you want."

"I hope you could forgive me. I will try to fix it and don't care how long it will take." Jungkook fell to his knees.

Lisa's eyes widen when saw him like this. This is her first time seeing Jungkook begging for her forgiveness. It makes her heart...broke.

"I'm sorry, Lisa. I meant it." Jungkook apologized.

Lisa hugs herself and takes her backstep. "What are you doing, Jungkook?"

"Y-You know that...I.." Lisa hesitated to say it but she forces herself to hurt him.

"...I c-couldn't forgive you ever." Lisa says.

Jungkook looks at her with shocks. Lisa shed her tears and clenches her fist. 

"I come here and take care of you, doesn't mean I can forgive you. Everything is changing, Jungkook. We're nothing. You ruin everything. You ruin my heart. You can't fix it." Lisa cried.

Lisa turns around and takes slow steps because she fighting against herself from running to his arms. Jungkook looks down.

"Look like...you will never come back." Jungkook says in a low tone.

Lisa gasp and stops. 

"I can see that I will lose you in the future." Jungkook chuckles sadly.

Lisa shakes her head and went out. She closes the door and that when she heard Jungkook yelling madly. She slides down on the door until she sits. She cried as hard as she can.

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Lisa finish her work. She let out a tired sigh. She sits on the chair and stretches her arms out. 

Why everything is changing...??

The table has turned. Lisa couldn't believe it. She staring at her hands and all the old memories come back. How she wishes she can bak to the past and change all of it. But, she knows she can't. 

"Lisa, you can go home now. I will close the library." The workmate says.

"Okay." Lisa smiles and stands up.

She went out of the library, only being welcomed by the cold wind. She let out a breath and smoke coming out.

"Oh yeah, snow is coming up. I forgot." Lisa chuckles at herself. She looks up to the sky and it dark. 

"How long you will gonna stand there? You can catch a cold you know." A voice makes her startled.

"Jungkook!?" Lisa gasp.

"Why so shocked?" Jungkook raises his eyebrows.

"Because a person who's the one catch cold right now is here!!!!!" Lisa yells.

Jungkook shrugs his shoulder. "It not like I'm weak by it." 

"I told you to get enough rest. Why don't you listen to me?" Lisa scolds him and puts her hands on her hips.

"I'm hungry and waiting for you to come back as you said will drive me to starving death." Jungkook being sarcastic.

"There's a lot of people coming to the library today. That's why I'm late." Lisa explains.

"Ahh, but still. I will starve to death waiting for you." Jungkook says. Lisa about to say something but someone interrupted.

"Oh my. Lisa, is this your boyfriend?" Her workmate walks toward them.

"W-What?" Lisa looks at her with shocks. She bowed first because her workmate is older than her so she has to polite.

"Such a handsome man you got." She compliment.

"A-Actually-" She slaps Lisa's arms playfully.

"Aigoo, don't be shy. If you two married, don't forget to invite me, okay? I and my husband will cheer it for you both and give some tips as husband and wife." She joked.

Lisa doesn't know what to say. While Jungkook just standing there with an emotionless face. 

"I have to go now. See you tomorrow, Lisa-ah. Bye, love birds!!" She waves goodbye and walks away.

Lisa's jaw drops. She even didn't let Lisa talks or something. 

What's was that?

Jungkook chuckles and sigh. "Poor her. She  even didn't know that she was a misunderstanding." 

Lisa looks at Jungkook. His expression was sad but being cover with 'I'm okay' expressions. He takes a deep breath and let it out.

"It getting cold. Well, you can just go home. I already bought dinner with me. I don't want you to get cold." Jungkook smiles.

If you being like this since we start our relationships, then I and you wouldn't suffer like this.

Jungkook smiles. "See you." 

He walks past her and they can feel their fingers brushed to each other. Everything seems like slow motion. Lisa turns around and watches him walking from the back.

She wanted to call him but she was too scared that he's not changed and still the same as before.

CONTINUE~