An Other Tone For An Other Life

Chapter 9

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I don't know how long it had been since Mason had left but I know for sure that he was far away.

I was sitting on my balcony, staring without really staring, a glass of water on the table and Charlie staring at me. He was waiting for me to talk. That wasn't gonna happen.

"Romie" he called.

I felt a little tingle in my heart. What was this about? I looked at him, not hiding any emotion I could feel. I was tired of hiding actually.

If I couldn't understand myself, maybe he could.

"I'm sorry-"

"Why did you lie to Mason?" I asked and he frowned in confusion before understanding fast.

"I thought that could help you" he answered and I nodded.

Back to the silence, as we started. But this time, I was staring at the ground.

"I'm sorry" I then said, looking back up into his eyes. I could see that he was confused "For saying those mean things at your house yesterday, I didn't mean them" I added and he slightly smiled.

"I'm not gonna lie to you, that hurt me a little bit" he said. "Am I forgiven?" I asked with a little voice that could have sounded like a child's voice. He fully smiled this time and nodded.

"I'm sorry too" he said. "For causing you so much problem" he added "So much pain"

"And I regret everything. I regret letting Kendall have the control over me. I regret not telling you and I regret to have let you leave without moving a foot"

"I guess you don't know what you got until it's gone" he said.

I looked down and for once in a while, I just listened to what my heart was telling me. No mind to stop my heart speaking. "I don't know what this all means" I started, looking down. "I don't know if I'm single or not or, if I still wanna be in a relationship or not"

I heard Charlie sighing "Do you wanna be with Mason?" Charlie asked and I looked up.

Do I?

"He seemed perfect" I began "We seemed happy. I seemed in love and he did too. I thought I had found someone that I was connected to but now, I feel like the connection faded" I added.

First time I was confessing. And first time I was finally seeing something clear inside myself in a while.

Maybe the brain isn't always the solution.

"You should have a talk with Mason" Charlie "You know, I hate that man but, if you tell me that you love him, then I'll respect you. After all, all I want is you to be happy" he explained and I looked inside his eyes.

Not just at his eyes. Inside them.

He was sincere. He meant it...

I'm gonna admit it. I felt good when Charlie and I kissed. Even though this was wrong, tasting him was an other level.

We'd been through a lot together. We'd been strongly connected and when I look at all that happened during our relationship, the cheating part is just like a little black rose in a field of millions of red roses...

"Charlie?" I called, before my mind could realise what I was doing "Do you still love me?" I asked.

His eyes opened wider. I could see a little bit of nervousness in his eyes and in the way he corrected his position on the chair.

"Why are you asking me this?" he answered, laughing nervously and I smiled. I smiled at the way he was trying to avoid to answer. "I remember the day of the results for the final exam, we were on our way to the university, to see the results and you were sitting exactly that way in the car" I said and he laughed again.