An Other Tone For An Other Life

Chapter 20

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Hey... It's been a while as much for you than for me. But it hasn't been quiet, believe me. Indeed, my days were busy either because of all the work I had missed or because of that wedding I was helping to plan. And my nights were... troubled. I couldn't stop thinking of him and what he could possibly be doing at that time. Where and with who...

When we left each other, my friends were about to leave for Canada to find Charlie. Well, it happened. But they didn't find him.

They took off in the US to land in Canada, then they went straight to the hotel he was supposed to stay at thanks to the little research I did in my own in Addison's files. There, they asked for his room to see if it was available or if he was still in here. The room was free so they took it and started to look for things inside the room even though there was no hope left.

After looking for him during 3 days, I decided it wasn't worth it. He was making me crazy and making my friends running up and down to find him. If he really loved me, he'd have come back to tell me.

I know this is half my fault but damn, I don't want him to break my heart again. Even though it is too late...

My girls came back and they helped me trying to forget him. It was easy during the day because I was always busy but the nights... As I said earlier, they were troubled.

Well, this was a little summary of what happened these last weeks. Now, where am I?

I'm in the Bahamas! My sister's getting married to a man she deserves and my whole family is dressed like they have never been to party all night on the magical beach of the Bahamas. I know, that's wonderful. Guess whose idea was this? Me. Of course.

I chose to wear a long satin red dress that I had wanted to wear since I saw it in the store. With this, I added black polished high heels and wavy hairstyle to complete my light makeup.

My sister seemed so happy and that made me happy for her too. Seeing that people can find love is comforting. But I'm not gonna lie, I was jealous.
I have been struggling with love since I discovered that feeling while she made this look so easy...

Sometimes, I couldn't even pretend anymore. It was too hard for me to smile and laugh when I knew I was broken inside. And when I needed air, I couldn't get away because of my Nona that kept on introducing me to people I didn't know and talking about how successful I was.

If only she knew.

I think God heard my SOS because a short moment later, my Nona was stuck talking with some old friends. Time for me to get away!

I softly left the party without anybody noticing and went to a part of the beach closer to the hotel and more quiet.

The loud sound of the music and the people slowly turned into a simply background of noises each less audible than the other. Soon, the sound of the waves crashing against the beach covered those noises and became one of the only sounds of the background.

I sat on a deck chair, looking towards the sea and the wind coming from the side. The temperature was warm and heavy with lots of water in the air but a small breeze of fresh wind was there to cook down the atmosphere when everything was too heavy.

I felt peace. The sun was already gone and the moon was there standing at its place in a dark sky covered with white and luminous stars. The water was not si blue anymore but pitch black. Almost giving a creepy vibe to the peaceful place.

Despite the dark environment, I was comfortable. My eyes couldn't look away from the water moving in front of me. I slowly got lost into my thoughts. All those questions that I had. All this confusion and sorrow that were running into my veins.