Shadows | Muke Clemmings

Chapter 5

After Mean Girls finally finished, I told Luke how Ash and Cal would be home soon. Luke agreed that it was probably best that he left but I demanded that I walked home with him. He just shrugged and agreed. We both stepped out the door in silence until I was the one to bring up conversation.

"Today was fun, we sure hang out more often!" I was looking down at my feet, smiling b I could still see Luke blush from the corner of my eye.
"Yeah, we should hang out more often, but promise me one thing?" He was smiling but looked serious as he glanced over to me, "Stop letting Niall walk all over you!"
I felt a lump grow in my throat as I stuttered out the words, "I-I don't..."
Luke stopped in his tracks and glared at me. "Right, Im not moving until you tell me exactly what's up with him and why you're so fucking terrified of him!"
"It's nothing Luke!"
"Oh really? It clearly is!"

I felt myself trembling slightly. Luke couldnt know I was gay, and he also couldn't know just how mean Niall used to be. He's toned down a bit now, but even so, you can still tell just how horrifying life with him is. Luke still wasn't moving so I quickly and quietly mumbled, "Nialls the only one that knows... Im gay..."
Luke's eyes widened. "Wait! You're gay?" He was staring at me and I could feel my cheeks growing red.
"Well Ive told you now so let's get a move on!" I said, trying to grab Luke's wrist and quickly walk away. Luke was hesitant and slow as he walked but still somehow followed me. An awkward silence hung over us the whole walk.

This was why I didn't tell people. First Niall turned against me and now I was gonna loose Luke. I seriously don't understand how Luke could judge me though. Luke is Bi-sexual, how can he even think about judging me for a second?
All sorts of thoughts flooded me on just what Luke was thinking, and it truly sickened me. I just wanted to arrive at his house as quickly as possible. I was relieved when I finally saw the building up ahead.

"Well, I guess we'll say goodbye here, my brothers would kill me if I let you up to our apartment." Luke said, awkwardly staring at his feet.
"Yeah, I should be heading back too, don't want Cal and Ash worrying." I mumbled, also looking down at my feet, glancing up at Luke every few seconds.
"Michael, about what you said back there-" he began, but I cut him off.
"Look just forget it, you have no reason to judge me about it considering you're not exactly straight either so whatever you have to say, save it!" I said, a lot sharper than intended. Luke was clearly hurt.
"Fine, I won't say anything, I'll just do this." He leant over and quickly pecked my cheek, but before I had time to react, he had ran off inside.

I was blushing for the whole walk home, unsure of how to react. I stepped through the door and flopped onto the couch. I switched on the TV but before I even had a chance to change to a decent channel, Calum and Ashton came storming in, clearly arguing.
"No! I called dibs first!" Calum yelled at Ashton.
"It's not my fucking fault she preferred me!" Ashton replied, scoffing.
"YOU WERE LEADING HER ON!" Calum said. Of course, fighting over a girl they had probably met at work.
"I wouldn't have had to if you had made a move first!" Ashton said, but Calum was already walking away.
"Im done with your shit!" He said, before walking into his room. Once he had disappeared, Ashton came and slumped himself next to me, leaning his head on my chest.
"Girl trouble?" I said, playing with a few strands of his hair. He nodded.
"Calum thinks that just because he calls 'dibs', he can bang every girl that walks in." Ashton said, scoffing yet again.
"And yet Im still considered the youngest!" I said, rolling my eyes.
"Pft, you haven't even lost your virginity!" Ashton said, laughing at me. I felt my cheeks heat up at these words because I was remembering the moment when Luke kissed my cheek earlier, inappropriate time to think about it but it just somehow appeared in my thoughts.

Ashton noticed my mood change and instantly sat up from my chest and squealed, "OH MY GOD! YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY!"
I went even redder at this before reassuring him, "No no no! Course not!"
"Then why did you go so red?" He said, raising an eyebrow at me and grinning.
"The other day I... I kinda met a boy and um... Today... I dunno he... Kissed my cheek." I was hiding my face to stop Ashton seeing the smile that was working its way onto my face along with my blushes.
Ashton squealed before saying, "Well, you wouldn't have gone so red if you didn't like him! I say you should invite him over tomorrow and bang him!" Ashton laughed and I had to hold back my laughter before saying, "I repeat, and you say Im the youngest."
"Mentally, perhaps not, but either way, Im 20! I say what I want!"
I rolled my eyes at him before turning the channel over to something decent before falling asleep where I was sat.

OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 100 READS!
Anyway, this chapter clears quite a few things up I guess.
I need to apologise for any typos in all chapters because I'm just kind of rush writing it all and then at the end, Im going to go back and rewrite everything correcting all mistakes! Okay, bye ilysm
~ J xxx