Fred Weasley Imagines

Hold On - pt. 4

As soon as he broke through the door, seeing you as you laid there so still with a potion bottle rolled next to a wall, his heart stopped.

" No, no, no, no..." Fred ran to you, pulling you into his arms to feel your heartbeat, which was very faint. " Please, don't leave me. GO GET HELP!" he shouted and continued to rock you in his arms.

He kept you close, so tight in your arms and whispering. " Please, don't leave me. " he continued to mumble, his heart racing so fast he thought he might as well be having a heart attack. " Hold on, I still want you." he cried in your shoulder, checking your pulse every second as afraid he's going to lose you. " Come back, I still need you." he sobbed and rocked you back and forth, your head supported by his hand and holding you close to your chest. He took a hold of your hand, whispering hysterically. " I'm so sorry, love. So, goddamn sorry. I'll make it right. I swear to love you all my life. Just hold on, I-I still need you."

More than one professor came running into the room, pulling Fred away from you, tearing him away from you but he still kept holding you by the hand, not letting go of you. " I am not letting go of her!" he shouted, pulling out his wand and casting the binding contract.

" Mr. Weasley!" shouted McGonagall, trying to tear him away from you but it was too late now, the unbreakable vow was already cast.

He bent down to you and kissed the back of your hand. " I have always loved you and I have never stopped loving you. I swear to love you all my life even if it kills me just don't let go." he cried, looking as your eyes kept being shut, your heartbeat faint. " Hold on."

And no professor, no person could tear him away from you. He traveled with you to St. Mungos, his hand never letting go of yours. He ignored the shouts and scolding that came from his head of the house, his eyes set on yours as you laid silent beside him.

Tears kept falling down his cheeks despite the fact he was completely calm on the outside yet the only thing he wanted was to escape this nightmare. But he couldn't. He couldn't escape this horrible nightmare, only pray helplessly.

He didn't look up or around himself, he was sure it was dark, it should have been dark, but the light wasn't fading and it kept hurting his eyes. It was too bright but he didn't dare to shut his eyes, not for a moment... not when it was you. And as calm as he appeared to be, it was only because he kept hiding the shock and the chill in his bones. Inside, he was chaotic.

As you arrived, the Healers took you away on a table, finally tearing you away from him. He kept his grip tight, for the last time checking your faint pulse before finally deciding to let the Healers do their work. They checked your pulse and without any realization, his one and only thought kept screaming, ' Please, don't leave me.' , his voice, however, was gone.

He waited. He waited for at least an hour, maybe two but everything passed so quickly and the last thing he remembered is pacing back and forth as you laid still. Finally, he sat down, throwing his head in his palm and trying to breathe but the only thing that came out of his mouth weren't breaths but desperate sobs.

' Please, hold on I still want you.' he let out a sob. " Please, please, just come back because I still need you." he now mumbled, wiping his wet cheeks.

He looked at you with his puffy eyes, running to your bedside and taking a hold of your hand once again. " I promise, PROMISE, you, I'll make it right. I swear to love you all my life. All you have to do, (y/n), is hold on because I still want you. I need YOU...and only you. And-and- I don't wanna let go..." he started to sob again, gently caressing the back of your hand. " I know I'm not that strong but I just want to hear you right now..." he paused, sniffing and wiping his cheeks with his sweater. " ...a-and I just wanna take you home. " he put his forehead on the back of your hand, crying uncontrollably. He was a mess. He didn't know what he was saying, he didn't know where to start but the only thing he knew what to say was the thought that kept screaming inside his head. " Just come back to me. I still need you."

And as a wish come true, you opened your eyes heavily and looked down at the boy next to you. No anger, no sadness or darkness, you saw him....you heard him...you heard everything.

" Fred..." you simpered, your voice quiet and raspy.

His head shot up, his cheeks so red that the color covered his freckles as he wiped them again with his sweater. " Oh, (y/n)... I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I can't even-"

" Shh." you squeezed his hand as much as your strength let you. " I love you too, Fred...bu-but you hurt me." you looked at him, tears starting to fill your eyes again. " I didn't mean to do this...I didn't mean to scare you or end up here, I swear. I just felt so horrible and sad all the time that I took a drop too much.."

" It's okay." he put his hand on your forehead, moving away from the strands of your hair from your eyes.

" I don't think Fred I'll ever forget what you did to me...or to trust you the way I did, so-"

" I don't care, (y/n). I don't care if you don't want to be with me, I just want you to be safe and happy. I care if you're alive because the world without you is-is not right. If we're friends or if you even find another boyfriend or partner, I don't care... As long as you are happy. I messed up, I did, and I don't deserve even for you to look at me, but just being here, with you, it's too much for what I asked for."

" Fred..."

" You don't have to forgive me. You shouldn't forgive a git like me for treating you so badly, but all I'm asking you to not punish yourself for something that was not your fault-"

" Fred." you smiled as he finally closed his mouth, listening.

Because as much as it hurt before, as angry as you were not long ago, it was gone in a flash. Everything you hold against him was gone and you knew...

" I forgive you."

~ Fin