All this Time

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"Bakit parang napapatagal ka ata dito?" Nagtatakang tanong saakin ni Ate Louisse, Habang ako eto abalang inaalagan yung anak niya! "Ayaw ko pa nga umuwi roon!" Singhal ko naman bago muling turuan si Geno sa mga assignments niya.

"Bakit kasi hindi ka pa makipag ayos!?" Sigaw saakin ni Ate, siguro'y sawa na rin siyang malaman na hindi nanaman kami maayos ni Van. "Gusto ko ng pahinga ate!" I said then face Geno again.

"Alam mo! Bakit hindi niyo na lang tapusin yang meron kayo!? Nag aaksaya lang kayo ng panahon" Komento ni Louisse sa sitwasyon ni Chesca at Van. "Aayusin nga namin to" Walang ganang sagot naman ni Chesca.

"Puro ayos? Pag kaayos niyo ano? Mag aaway kayo ulit?" Pagpuna ni Louisse. "Ate tigilan mo na ko...Sasabog na'y utak ko kakaisip!" Singhal ni Chesca, Bago tingnan ang phone niyang tumunog ngayon ngayon lang.

From: Bumbum💛

When will you go home?

Nabasa ko sa text ni Van. Kailan nga ba ako uuwi? Gusto ko pa bang umuwi? Napatingin akong muli ng makita ang isa niya pang message.

From: Bumbum💛

Are you breaking up with me?

Thinking of what to send him, My sister suddenly speak making me look at her.

"Alam mo, Kung hindi kayo ang may problema...Baka isa sainyo, Pag usapan niyo yan. Lalu ka na Chesca huwag kang tatanga-tanga" Pabiro ngunit makatotohanang paalala ni Louisse sa bunsong kapatid.

"Geno! Tingnan mo'y Nanay mo! Tiyak akong miss na niyan Papa mo kaya ako napagbabalingan!" Sabi ko naman habang tinitngnan si Ate na umaakyat ng hagdan.

"Tita? Are you and Kuya not okay like Mama and Papa?" Tanong ni Geno "Ikaw huwag ka ngang madaldal, Gawain mo yang Assignment mo" Pananaway ko naman sa kanya.

Its 5:00 AM in the morning, I never wake up this early...But lately it has been a week that I am creating this habit. I just don't feel like sleeping in our bed too long knowing she's not by my side. I can't even get enough sleep and a rest, But what do to do? I don't function well without her. All I know is to do my work. Unlike when she's here, I am so lively. This isn't the first time that she leave me, In fact this was the second time. I promise myself to not make any reason for her to leave me again. But it still happens...

I got up and just have a coffee in our balcony, My cooking skills sucks so I decided just not to eat anything. I don't want to text her or Call her at this early eventhough I am dyeing to hear her voice.

Cause I can't sleep properly and I would also automatically wake up at this time, I don't do anything other than laying on the couch, reading a book, Reviewing Company details or just stare at the sky, waiting for the sunrise. And when the clock hits 7:00 AM, Thats a signal that I should get ready for work.

Just doing my usual routine, I leave the house and drive all the way to the Building.

"Goodmorning Sir" Ladies on the frontdesk greet me. Didn't even greeting them back I step in the elevator and press 22 where its floor is dedicated to all the office works, Like the Board of Directors Office and a lot of room for each office employee.

Once I enter my office, I open my computer and immediately started working. I just call my assistant to ask her to get me a breakfast at Haiyan's Hotel Buffet on the ground floor.