I Love You Too Much to Give Up Now (BoyxBoy)*Complete*

Chapter 13: ILY2M

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Chapter 13: ILY2M

My heart hurt a bit when he ignored my hug and kiss but I understand. He's new to this so I don't blame him. I remember when I first came out and my ex-boyfriend Brian was upset because I was afraid to hold his hand in public and kiss him too but still, he was my first boyfriend. I also remember when he broke up with me because I didn't want to have sex.

He tried to unzip my pants but I told him no. He dropped it and a few weeks after that he just did it. He put his hand in my pants fast so I couldn't react and he started rubbing it. I was afraid it would lead to something more so I took his hand out.

He glared at me then walked away. He turned to me and said to me that he has needs and he loves me and won't hurt me but if I can't do it to me that he would break up with me. He grabbed my chin and brought my eyes to meet his and he looked sad. He kissed me and then I looked back into his eyes, his big green beautiful eyes that shined brightly.

I then walked out on him. I told him that if he couldn't except that I wasn't ready then I'm leaving him. He grabbed my wrist and kissed me again.  I smiled at him but he frowned and told me he'd miss me. I dropped my smile and felt tears well up in my eyes. I told him I loved him but I left himHe was sexy.

He was way taller than me by almost a head and he was blonde. He was muscular and had a light tan. He had a baby like face but yet it was very muscular. His hair was a bit long and it was straight. I was surprised that a junior like him would want to be with an eighth grader like me.

I thought it was so amazing to be with him and have him drop me off at school and take me places. I truly did love him but it hurt to know I was way more in love with Sam then Brian.  Another reason was when I was around Sam, Brian was jealous. . I cried for a long time and what made me forget was that Sam was there for me when that happened.

The thing I loved the most about Sam was that he wasn't like most guys who have guy best friends. He really did care about me and it really shows it now. I shouldn't be upset, he's just not ready and that's fine with me. I don't want to lose him because I'm being selfish.

I mentally slapped myself to pay attention to the board ahead of me filled with words I just missed out on. I looked to my left and saw Sam staring into space.

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Sam's P.O.V

I don't understand this shit I swear. English is just confusing sometimes and the teacher I swear. He never stops talking about stories of his life and his gay friends and this damn crap. I hate vocabulary. I am dyslexic so it makes everything harder for me to understand but I've managed to keep my B- to stay that way for a whole semester.

I looked over at Eric who was resting his head on his hand. It amazes me that someone like him could change me this much. My whole sexuality has changed because of him but he's the only guy that I love.

 I don't know what it is about him that really has made me think differently of him. I love him, a lot! Thinking of him always makes me smile and thinking of him always makes me realize how lucky I am. His beautiful chocolate brown eyes and his sexy man curves. I just wonder how he felt every time

 I would talk about different girls and take him with me zo I could go find more girls to be with. It just breaks my heart that I made him feel so bad and I didn't even know. It makes me remember that time when he cut so badly.

It all makes sense now. He did that because of me. Oh god! It was because of me. I feel completely guilty now. I slide my hand on my face and take a deep breath.

"Mr. Cordero, what do you think it is?" I heard Mr. Wood call on me.

"Umm, " I said not knowing what he was talking about.

"Exactly, pay attention." He said pointing to the board.

I looked over to Eric who was staring at me. I saw him mouth I Love You. I looked around the class to see if anyone could see but no one so I mouthed I Love You Too. He smiled and looked forward.

I smiled to myself and felt bad that I have to hide it. I love him but this is too much for me to handle but I love him too much to hide it. Well it's just for now. I then frowned and groaned in frustration but it wasn't loud enough for people to hear.

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Ok so the thing I hate most about my head is as soon as I tell u guys im not gonna post this story it's the first thing I feel like typing and posting when it comes to it lol but It was hard for me to type anything because I always listen to Paramore when I type and now that I know they broke up I can't bare to listen to them or I feel like crying.

They are my inspiration for everything!!!!

Not just writing but everything so I don't know how long til my next upload. So please vote and comment and cheer me up.! Bye:(