Habits ➪ mairi

𝑺𝒊𝒙𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏 ♫☘︎︎✈︎

𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚊

i took a seat next to marvin and he looked at me. before starting his sentence.

"you touched the kid. he went home crying. of course you wouldn't remember, now he's scared of you. scared of everyone." he says as he lights his cigarette and inhales the drug.

now i feel super guilty. i touched the guy that i was supposed to protect and be there for. i took his innocence, something that he would have wanted to save.

"how do i fix this marvin?" he sighs before looking back at me.

"talk to him. apologize for everything you have put him through. because at the end of the day everything that you did intoxicated and high can kill you slowly." he says. i quickly grab my backpack from the corner and look back at him.

"i'll try. if he doesn't accept it, then i don't know what i'll do." i rub my forehead. my whole 'happy' sappy mood was ruined.

i quickly grab my phone from my pocket, dialing kairis phone number, only for it to go to voicemail.

i called again and again, to only receive the same answer. a ringtone.

i sigh as i walk home, the only decision i had was to wait until tomorrow to talk to him. and i know that it won't age well.

𝙺𝚊𝚒𝚛𝚒

i was not hurt. but disgusted in myself. i blocked mattias phone number and him on all social media's. 

i didn't wanna go to school and face to see mattia, so i asked diego if he could copy home ec work for me and drop mattias necklace off.

robert was a really big help. he had been their for me since everything happened.

☀︎︎♫☽

after school robert and diego came over with the homework.

"hey how was school?" i ask both of the boys sitting right across from me. diego scratches his head, which makes me wonder what happened.

"what happened?" i ask. they both make eye contact and again scratch their necks.

"erm - well mattia was asking for you in ec. he was confused about you giving him the necklace back. he uhm- wants to see you kai." diego finishes. why would he wanna see me after what he put me through?

"why would he wanna see me after he put me through all he put me through. why would he wanna see me after he touched me and i was trying to push him off?" at this point tears were brimming my eyes.

before any of the boys could answer the question, we heard the doorbell ring.

i walked to see who was at the door, and it was taylor.

"kai theirs a party on saturday. wanna go?" she says in excitement. i didn't wanna let her down so i said yes. a decision i would soon regret.

"yes.. uhm sure..." i say as the boys behind me look at me in shock.

hi! uhm well first update! this book is gonna have really slow updates but i'll try to update it whenever i can !

anyways vote and comment :) - mairistampon