Property of A.L.P

Entry Five

Dear Journal,

     It's been a month since I've written in here! I've been very busy lately with the children that I haven't had time to write or actually have any time to myself.  Right now I sit to myself next to the fire, it's an average night. I don't have much to say except that I'm exhausted. The children get worse and worse every single day, it's tiring. I've taken a break from the drugs but sooner or later I know I'm going to need them. Everyday it gets harder, living gets harder. "Its absurd and awful to think that way Alma" I tell myself in the mirror. The mirror, I can never look in the mirror, it pains me. 

Enough with the sad news though! I have a special guest who's coming over. I haven't seen her since the ymbryne academy and I honestly thought she had passed. Her name is Lea (De Leon) Nightingale and she is the living definition of perfect, society's perfect. She has curves, tan skin, gorgeous brown eyes, and the most beautiful shade of brown hair you could imagine. I was talking to Isabel about her and every time I mentioned her Isabel would get red, and...and it made me jealous?

Of course I think Lea Is beautiful but seeing Isabel blush that way made me feel things. Made me feel a specific pain that I didn't want to feel. I love Lea and I shouldn't be jealous of her in such ways. I do miss her dearly. As I said Lea's practically perfect in every way. 

Until next time

Signed,

Alma Lefay Peregrine