Bound

Chapter Nineteen

When I woke up the next morning, Rupert was not beside me. I was still wearing the same dress from the night before and my lips felt swollen from all of the kissing I had done with Rupert. The sun was shining through the window and I checked the time on my phone, to see that it was nearing noon. Rupert and I had gone to sleep very late in the night and the events flashed through my mind as I stood up and got dressed.

Will was the first thing that came to my mind and cringed to myself knowing that I would have to face him today. I didn't want to see him -- I never wanted to see him again. I didn't know how I was going to look him in the eyes after what we had done with one another. Our kissing had felt so -- so special and I couldn't understand why. I had never felt anything like that before, not even when I had been kissing Rupert last night. God, I thought to myself as I finished brushing my teeth and changed into new clothes, I need to start getting my shit together.

After composing and preparing myself to see Will, I walked downstairs and into the kitchen where I knew everyone would be. Cecily and Charlotte were standing over the stove, cooking something that I couldn't see, and Gabriel and Rupert were sitting there and watching. Rupert looked up and probably smiled at me, but I didn't know because my eyes had already shot over to Will. He was sat at the kitchen table, a book resting on the table in front of him, but he looked up when I entered the kitchen.

I had thought that I was prepared to see Will but now I knew that I hadn't been. His blue eyes were staring deep into my grey ones and a jolt ran through my body at the intensity of it. The feeling of his lips on my neck and his hands running along my body came back to me, and I felt an odd feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wanted him, I realized with dread and defeat, even after trying convince myself that I didn't, I still wanted to have Will like that again. I hastily looked away from Will and he went back to reading.

"Good morning." Rupert grinned at me. "I thought you would never wake up."

He pecked me on the lips and I smiled up at him.

"I was really tired." I commented, pouring myself a cup of coffee.

"I wonder from what." Gabriel smirked between Rupert and I.

I blushed and watched as Rupert grinned bashfully at Gabriel who was still smirking. I noticed that Will glanced up in disgust at Gabriel's comment but I didn't meet his eyes. I couldn't. I felt shameful that I had spent the night with Rupert after having made out with Will that same night; that wasn't me and now I found that I regretted it.

"Rupert and I didn't do anything bad." I objected, however I wasn't really sure why I did.

"I'm sure you didn't." Gabriel chuckled while taking a sip of his coffee.

"We didn't." I insisted, glancing over at Will who appeared to be reading his book.

"The party was fun." Charlotte then changed the subject. "Tessa, Cecily, you two looked so good last night."

I smiled. "Thanks, Charlotte."

And then something came to my head that I had nearly almost forgotten about; Beautiful. That was what I wanted to say to you earlier. Not different. You look beautiful. Will's words that he had spoken to me when we had been kissing -- I wasn't sure how I had forgotten them. My cheeks heated and a warm feeling coursed though me as I turned them over in my mind. Had he really thought that about me? He couldn't have. Surely Will had said that because he had been drunk. I tried to push down the part of me that hoped that he had meant it.

I looked over at Will once again and studied him. He looked very focused on whatever book it was that he was reading, and something in my heart spasmed at the sight of him. We had really done that -- we had really kissed like that. As if we hadn't been enemies for nearly nine years. Will probably hated himself for kissing me; I knew that he thought himself to be above me and it must be killing his pride to know that he kissed me. But does he even think he's above you? A voice asked in my mind. I pushed all of these thoughts away. I needed to stop thinking about Will.