Azaadiyan

Part 18- Is this Love?

Asiyah's POV.

I woke up with his arms tightly wrapped around my waist as my body was against his.

Thank god that our clothes were still on. I was able to stop us from going any further.

I don't know why I'm ashamed to admit that I feel something towards him. I'm not supposed to feel this way.

Not after he forcefully married me and lied to me.

I just hate myself for feeling this way.

I carefully moved his arms away and got out of the bed. It was past 8am, he didn't wake up and leave like every other day this time.

I took some clothes out and got into the bathroom to take a shower and fresh up. How am I supposed to face him after the moment we shared yesterday?

After getting ready, I got out still drying my hair with a towel.

I saw that he was still sleeping. I went close to him and stared at him closely.

I found myself touching the features on his face. The sun was coming into our room and was splashing on his face.

I was about to move back when he suddenly grabbed my hand and opened his eyes. Don't tell me he was awake while I did that?

"good morning sugar plum" he said with his attractive morning voice.

"uh good morning" I said moving back.

I turned around not facing him and kept drying my hair.

"did you sleep well?" he asked.

"I did" I said. Will I even be able to held a normal conversation with him without feeling weird?

I felt him grab my shoulders and turn me to him. He approached his face into the side of my neck and when I tell you I was about to loose my cool.

"mmh...sweet vanilla" he said pulling away.

I was looking at him with wide eyes.

"I'll shower now" he said pecking my forehead and then getting into the bathroom.

My heart was about get out of my chest. Calm down, calm down. I told myself.

This is bad! He thinks I don't mind him touching me because of last night!

Oh my Allah! I can't do this!

Not until I fully trust him and love him.

Right now, nothing is sure and clear to me. I'm still confused and I still need a lot of answers.

But what should I do?

Should I tell him straight up or just keep distance?

I feel like staying away from him will only pull one of us closer to each other.

Once he was done getting ready, we both made our way to breakfast.

I saw him trying to grab my hand a few times as we were walking but I was not letting him.

I have to tell him how I truly feel.

We made it to breakfast and sat face to face. I could see him staring at me while eating.

Ya allah.

I stopped eating for a moment and looked at him taking a breath.

He moved his gaze away pretending he wasn't just eating me up with his stare.

"Azaan?" I called his name in a serious tone.

"yes wifey?" he said with a smile.

Damn it, that smile!