Captured in His Words

Chapter 3

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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!

You both like philippines, filipino, student.

Stranger:
M

You:
f

Stranger:
Hello :)

You:
hi

Stranger:
age?

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"Anong importante sa phone mo at tutok na tutok ka diyan ate?" My mom jokingly told me when I was about to reply again. It was already lunch time so I just waited for the food while using Omegle again. Bored ako okay?

"Wala lang, nagchachat." Simpleng sabi ko at tumutok ulit sa Omegle.

Minutes later, nasimulan ko ng maamoy ang ulam kaya dinisconnect ko na ang kausap ko at pinatay ang phone ko. Mom sat in front of me and also started eating; while taking off her apron.

"Ano oras pasok niyo bukas?"

Nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagkain habang hindi siya tinitignan. Sumubo muna ako ng kanin bago ko siya harapin at inalala kung anong oras nga ba pasok namin bukas. "May club orientation at recruitment, so I guess halfday lang kami tomorrow. Mga 6:30 siguro gisingin mo na 'ko."

"Noted." She said. I went back to eating my food but minutes after, I felt that my mom was not moving so I looked at her once again. She was staring at me, and her eyes were saying that she wants to tell me something pero hindi niya magawa.

"What is it, Ma?" I asked her, now putting down my spoon and fork. "Is it about my club?"

My mom let out a deep breath. "Ate," Hinawakan niya ang kanang kamay ko at hinaplos pa ito. "Why don't you try the music club?"

Kaagad akong nanigas sa pwesto ko. That word again.  Kashka also mentioned it yesterday when we talked about the whole co-manager stuff.

"No, Ma. I'll be joining the arts club, not the music club."

I continued to eat and thankfully, mom changed the subject. Mukhang alam niya na ayaw ko na iyong pag-usapan. And she was fully aware of the reason why. At hindi pa ako handang pag-usapan ang rason na iyon.

We mostly talked about my school life because I am already in the last semester of my 4th year in high school. Usually, alam ko na dapat ang future ko by this point. Pero sadyang hindi ko talaga alam ang plano ko sa buhay. Lalo na at late ako mag-aral ng isang year.

Life is so complicated. One small mistake and you might end up losing everything. That's why I'm really thinking hard of my decisions about my future.