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Kim Seok-jin X Black Reader

"Just say it Jin!"

 My throat tightens as my fear of what his next words could be grows. If he says what I have been dreading since I started dating him; it will break everything inside of me. 

 " Say it- " 

He slams his hand on top of our dinner table before rising up from his seat to look at me. I stand up shortly after as I slowly walk up to him, his chest rising up and down as he starts to breathe heavily. I don't know if picking the night I finally have him to myself since their comeback to bring this up to him was right, but I do know that I can't hold the weight of what I am feeling inside any longer. 

" You're ashamed to be with me aren't you? You regret dating me, don't you? Is that why you didn't respond to any of my calls or texts recently?! " I ask him as my voice grows higher. I feel my face growing hot at the reasoning I have done as I continue to look at his emotionless face. I don't know what he's thinking.

Before I can get out another word he grabs my hand tightly as he leads us toward the bedroom.

" Jin no! I want an answer from you now!" 

When we reach the closed door he abruptly stops pulling me. He hasn't said a word so far and this causes me to try to speak again, but I stop at short as he turns around toward me. His height and the fact that he is clenching his jaw is not making this situation any better.

" Is that what you have been thinking this whole time? " He asks as he looks between my eyes. 

Tears form in my eyes once again. I'm face to face with it now.

" Yes."  

He stares at me as he starts to open the door. Without taking his attention off of me he moves to the side. I look to see what's inside of the room and feel any words I had left to say fall down my throat. 

Roses decorated the bed as the scent of vanilla candles filled the air. The words ' Will You Marry Me? ' hang letter by letter from the ceiling. I soon feel him moving behind me until his chest is against my back. I feel destroyed as my feelings begin to jump all over the place. Jin bends down slowly until he is near my ear.

" You don't desire with every fiber in your body, to spend the rest of your life with someone you are ashamed of." He says in an undertone before stepping back.

Every tear my eyes held all fall down as I bring a hand up to my mouth. I am quickly consumed with regret the more I look at the question I thought he would never even think of asking me. At the end of the day he wanted me, not just now, but for the rest of his life.

" Jin I-" I turn to see him no longer standing where he was behind me. The loud sound of the front door shutting causes me to immediately run to the living room.

" Jin come back!" I scream, but I soon realize that I am calling after someone already gone. Did I mess it up? Did I really screw it over this time? I drop to my knees before holding my head in my hands.  I was so busy just hearing his ' I Love You', I failed to let my heart listen to it. I quickly start thinking of my life without his presence and realize the pain I would be in the whole time. Feeling another sob trying to arise I hear the doorknob turn. 

I lift my head to see Jin now standing in front of my figure on the floor, his eyes bloodshot red as if he just got finished crying, and I most certainly don't blame him.

He lifts his hand upholding a black small box.

" I forgot the ring  in the car." He says before reaching out a hand to me.

I stare at him in shock, believing only seconds ago that my whole heart just walked out of the house. 

" O Jin," I say loudly as I reach to grab his hand. I wrap my arms around him completely before holding him tight, scared of letting him go. I pull back before holding his face between my hands.

" I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Jin. I should've not have had thoughts like that. I was just so scared that you would get tired of me one day, that you didn't love me any-" 

He grabs the back of my neck before kissing me deeply. I feel him kissing all of the doubts and insecurities I had inside about us out of me. He places his forehead against mines for a few seconds after we part.

" Y/N I'm sorry you went through those feelings for so long by yourself, and for not reminding you enough of my love for you if I didn't. 

" Jin-"

" I love you, and I am not ashamed of you, I could never be, " He pulls me closer until our chests are against each other. 

" I want to do all of this with you for a very long time. "

He wipes the rest of my stray tears before shaking the small box in front of my face.

" It would be an honor to be your husband if you're willing of course," He smirks before running a hand down my braids before placing his hand on my back.  I laugh before lightly hitting his chest.

" Will you marry me? " He asks as he opens the box in front of me.

" Only because the ring looks too pretty to go to waste," I say before he places it on my finger. He gasps before I kiss him to seal it. 

A/N- Listen I have been really drunk on cups of hopeless romantic drinks, so I want to apologize for the angst you guys are going to be seeing. Lol. I will change the theme up soons, you just have to let me get all of this out first. -Please feel free to vote or comment, let me know what you think.

I am doing requests as well! Angst only for right now.