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Park Jimin X Black Reader

I should have left sooner so that it wouldn't get this far. 

I knew I was bad for him.

 Because I didn't listen to my gut, I'm here on an abandoned rooftop about to hurt the first person I ever loved.

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" Y/N," 

I hear him call my name before he falls into fits of laughter. I hate when he does that, it makes my somewhat dead heart actually beat again every time I hear it. 

"That wasn't your car that we were just caught speeding in was it?"

I look up at the now black sky as if I am contemplating.

" You know, the one we just got chased by cops in? Or was that someone else?" 

I chuckle before turning my head to see him already looking at me, a big mistake. The wind picks up as soon as I do and it causes his hair to whip around him slightly. I have to quickly remind myself that this will be my last night with the black-haired boy that I shouldn't have met. I move towards him before pulling his body against mines by his belt. This causes him to blush as I raise a finger to his lips.

" You liked it Jimin, the rush, the sirens growing louder as I kept moving us up from 60." 

I smirk as I hold my hand over his heart as it begins to pick up faster. I enjoy it when it gets like that, knowing that I and my actions are the cause of it. How selfish of me.

" I shouldn't like it Y/N, that's dangerous what you just did, they could have caught up if we didn't know the shortcuts to take. But I'm glad I was with you, with everything else too , and that I'm feeling this with you," He says in a whisper before bringing a hand to my cheek. He was right, he shouldn't like it . He was supposed to be the opposite, the one who was smart and knew what was best for him, not become me, the one who doesn't know either and is scared of what's best for her. I shouldn't taint him no further. I'm seeing in his eyes what I never thought I would see directed my way. Love. Something I haven't known in years until him, and it's scaring the life out of me how much of it I have for him too.

" Y/N I- "

"Don't Jimin." 

"Why won't you let me?"  he asks before clenching his jaw. A habit I  realized he does when he can't get what he wants , and right now it feels that way with me.

"What's the point?" 

I turn my attention away from him and back to our view of the city as I try to delete all emotion from my face. Leaving him is going to be harder than I thought. He scoffs before I feel him move behind me.

" Stop denying it," I hear him say  before feeling his chest against my back.

" Stop fighting what you know Y/N, you deserve to have someone who wants you with their whole-"

"Lay off Min! You know nothing!" I scream out before turning around to face him as I feel my lip start to tremble. He quickly shakes his head before pointing a finger at me. 

" I know enough to realize how deeply in love I am with you! Let me guess , you planned on leaving tonight didn't you?!" 

I frown at how quick he was to acknowledge that as I try to control my breathing again.

" Honestly Jimin it's none of your business. How did you-"

" Because I know the person I love! Just quit it Y/N!" I slowly back up at the tone lacing his voice, a habit I developed from the things that happened in my home a long time ago,  memories  I have been struggling all my life to push down into an abyss somewhere. I have to quickly remind myself that he is coming from a different place with his anger. He's fighting for someone that he wants, not someone that he doesn't.

"Stop attacking me, I am fighting for you right now," 

He grabs both sides of my face and deep down I wish he hadn't because it causes the tears I have for the past ten minutes been trying to hold in.

" You love me." He says before kissing me. I shouldn't do what I'm about to do because it's going to be even harder to break myself from him and the warmth he has for me. But he deserves a place where it will be held safely, a heart that won't damage his. But I go against what is right and bring him closer to me before threading my hands through his hair. His hands move from my hips to tangle themselves through the braids cascading down my leather jacket.

" Don't leave Korea, stay with me. I want to show you that you do deserve love, that you aren't alone," He says against my lips as I  feel all air evaporating from my lungs. I hate to admit it but he has become everything to me, and I will always curse myself for letting it happen like I did, knowing that I wasn't ready to love him the way he should be loved. I again go against the screaming in my head before confessing to him. I go against it again as I lead us back to his apartment.

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I wake up as silently as I can at 4 to catch my plane at 5.  A few heart wrenching minutes later I find myself at the bedroom door to catch one last look at his fluffed bed hair and his half-exposed figure soundly resting under the black silk sheets I brought him a few weeks ago. My vision blurs as I struggle to keep my tears at bay, the hand holding my suitcase shaking the longer I stare at him. I don't even want to think about the heartbreak that will show on his face when he wakes up to me not beside him.  Trying my hardest to ignore the screams my heart is belting out to him, I turn to shut the door. 

Our first and last moments together replaying through my mind like a broken CD as I feel the plane lift off into the air away from the boy who wasn't scared to love a person like me, away from what was left of my heart.