Ive been crying a little bit more lately but I'm dealing with it lol. I was feeling like absolute shit a little bit ago and had a 600 word rant written but it got deleted so here I am rewriting a different one because my dumbass can't hit save for some reason. I'm feeling better and confident now tho so here's a self care ramble LMFAO. I think I just needed a good cry.
I want to improve myself more. I usually only exercise 1 or 2 times a day but I want to bump it up to 2 or 3. I wanna binge work on some schoolwork tonight too so I can be ahead and start on AP courses. I'm starting to notice some very small, almost nonexistent abs so eyyyyyyyy
Other than these three teeny bumps under my hairline and a random ass scab, my face is clear :D I wash my face everyday, exfoliate every other day, and moisturize twice a day. I never had bad acne in the first place tho so this may not work for everyone.
I stopped being so self conscious about my appearance!
I've started to like the way I look and feel nice ngl XD. Exercise has payed off with my barely noticable abs, slightly stronger thighs, and thinner waist lol.
This is my current routine:
-60 Russian Twists (each side
-35 Squats
-1 Minute Wall Sit
-15 Push-ups
-60 Mountain Climbers (each side)
-1.5-2 Mile Walk
-30 Jumping Jacks
-80 Backwards Kicks (each side)
-50 Calf Raises
-40 Heel Touchers
-25 Windsheild Wipers (each side)
-20 Side Planks (each side)
-20 Leg Lifts (each side)
-50 Bicycle Kicks (each side)
-20 Second Reverse Plank
-1 Minute Run in Place
-25 Laying Leg Pull-ins (each side)
-40 Side Clams (each side)
-Stretch
Repeat 2-3 Times A Day
It's honestly not too hard. I started out with doing half of what I do now and worked my way up to the amount. I'm thinking about adding some more too so yeeeeeeeeeee. I've been doing it for about a month and a half maybe?
Singing is doing goooooood. My belts are getting better and my head voice is looking s t r o n k
Fun fact! When you're on your period your vocal range can shrink by 2-4 notes, and it can be hella hard to do whistle notes. Your body retains water on your period and takes it from your throat, along with your muscles not being as good so singing is not a good thing to do on your period. Before my period I hit a few comfortable B2's but now I can only do C3. I can usually hit a Bb6 but until my period is over all I can hit is an insanely weak Ab6.
My grades are doing good! I have a 96% average in Civics, a 94% average in ELA, an 86% average in Math, and Science is hella short so I'm gonna start it after Christmas. I've been going to bed and waking up a little earlier + drinking more water so yay lolol.
I grew half an inch in the span of a month so now I'm 5'8.5 lol. I'm actually okay with being tall now but Istfg if I hit 6'0-
My dad says I'm probably gonna grow another inch so that would make me 5'9.5 if he's right.
My crush is 5'10-
I've liked this kid for a whole ass year btw. A whole ass year and I haven't done shit
Speaking of crush person, I'm THINKING of texting him. Not written in stone, but I'm thinking about it. After crying about feeling annoying and being said about not seeing my friends I now feel less annoying. Idfk how that works but hooray Ig lmfao.
I need some icebreakers tho-
I kinda wanna ask him a basic question but at the same time Idk-
Any tips are appreciated.
Time for some over analyzing
Okay so like two weeks ago this exchange happened:
Him: How was ur day
Him: Oh that was meant for someone else, sorry
Him: But still, how was ur day
This was a little weird. We hadn't talked in a few weeks, which would mean my contact would be low on his recent contacts list since he has a good amount of friends and family he talks to regularly lol. Do you think he meant to send that on purpose? Should I give it a shot and message him? Plus, he fixed his mistake immediately. He wouldn't have known he messaged the wrong person until he got a reply, right? Idk but I was happy when I got the message so oof. Still gonna think about messaging him tho cuz I miss him.
I'm gonna start just disregarding my mom when she's being an ass lol. Just brush it off mt shoulder and move on because when she's not okay in the head she is not okay in the head holy shit
Bruh, fuck people who try and make people feel bad to bring themselves up lol. Istg there's people actually being proud of themselves for something for once and these people just say "n o" like fuck off and rant on tumblr. It's okay to be insecure but don't take it out on people who aren't.
Anyways, I'm tired so Imma end it here. Sorry for not being as active, I've just been a little busy but I plan on writing some oneshots soon. I'm waiting until the first episode of AoT season 4 airs to continue Our Child so I can get a good idea and some inspiration lol. Thanks for reading this pointless ramble and byeeeeeee
