Nobody's Girl

Chapter 11

LUKES POINT OF VEIW...

I texted her that I couldn't come over that night. She texted me,
I love you xo she said.
Right as I was going to respond my meeting began so I didn't have time to reply.

It's all my fault. I didn't see her last night and now I'll never see her again. I hate myself. I hate my existence, she's gone now and she's never coming back. I miss her so much it's been a week. I love her but I didn't text her back.

She was mine and I took that for granted. I didn't think anything was going to happen. I didn't know everything can come crashing down. I didn't see this coming. I run the fucking rebellion and I don't see this coming.

My dad died this week. It's been two weeks sense she has been gone and this week my dad died. All I can think about it her though. Does that make me selfish. It's all my fault, I should've seen this coming. I haven't left my apartment her brothers came to visit and I saw they were worse then me. They came because the rebellion is in shambles, also because Aurora sent them a letter.

Dear family,
Prince Malum has granted me the privilege to send you a letter to let you know if my well being. Everything is great here, we are getting married in a month before our lunch of course I cannot wait to see you. Here I am learning to ride horses and how to act it is magical like out of a fairy tale. Will you help me with the wedding plans? I cannot wait to see you I miss you all very much. Prince Malum is very kind. So do not worry about me. I get to wear dresses and tiaras. Act like a women instead of a man. It is taking a load off my shoulder that I don't have to pretend anymore. Adam the picture of all of us is framed next to my bed. I have my own room until the marriage and the grounds are beautiful I get to draw every day, but I cannot go anywhere without guards. Which I am very grateful for. I cannot wait to see you in 2 weeks.
Love,
Aurora
THIS LETTER HAS BEEN APPROVED.

I knew immediately that she didn't mean a word of this. The ink she used was smeared on the page as if the person writing was crying on the page. She didn't talk like that and I know that she hated dressing like a girl, but did it to impress me. Horses scared her and she hated having constant bodyguards. I also knew that she wasn't ready for marriage as she repeated to me often.

I miss her it's been 3 weeks now. Will life get better? I slit my wrists before I got to find out.

Just as I felt the life drain out of me the door slammed open. In strides Ryder. He picks me up which is surprising because I weigh like 200 pounds. He wraps my wrists with gauze and takes my head in between his hands forcing me to look at him.
"It is not over yet, we cannot give up." He says deadly calm.
"There is still hope and where there's hope there's a way -Star Wars reference- I will not allow you to give up so get yourself together and use the pain to drive you control it don't let it control you." He finishes.
Something in me snapped that day. So I did exactly that. I am coming for you Aurora, don't give up on me.