Min Yoongi - Idol's love

Chapter XII

Chapter 12: An accident

After gathering all my thoughts and realizing Yoongi didn't follow me, I returned to our hotel room. I opened the door quietly because I wasn't sure if Rosé was awake or sleeping.

But she might wait for me and start asking questions when I just disappeared somewhere with Yoongi for a long time.

Though she knows what we cannot do with the members, I don't think she would suspect anything like that. However, I'm the worst liar. She would see through me instantly.

Fortunately, she was asleep. I feel bad that our movie night ended like this. I have to make it up for her somehow during the tour.

I tiptoed back to my bed quietly and went under the covers. I bet I couldn't sleep at all because of how this is affecting my feelings right now.

Honestly, the number of thoughts in my head drove me crazy, and I cannot put them into words.

Yoongi kissed me? He said he likes me.

Shouldn't that be every girl's dream? For a guy or a girl to like you? Yet alone an idol?

In my case, I don't know if I should call it a dream or a nightmare.

It's not that I don't like him. I admit it. We have had chemistry for several months, and I feel it's stronger. It's nothing professional anymore. I might pretend I don't have feelings for him. I'd be lying to myself if I said I don't.

But this will ruin everything. Why did Yoongi do it? And on tour? Where I have nowhere to escape.

It is not okay for us to date, let alone to have physical action or mental bond. I made that deal when I stepped into this company. And so has Yoongi. I could get fired, and it is me who leaves, not him.

But I don't have anything else. I cannot just walk away because it will haunt me from company to company. It won't stay a secret, and I'd have to study a whole other job for myself.

Didn't he think at all when he just went for it?

It felt nice. Yoongi's lips were so soft. I always imagined them to be that.

Yoongi has always been straightforward, and though he is sometimes shy or is a bit afraid to show his emotions truly, I always believed he was the one making the first move.

I don't want to lose him. Gosh, why are you so stupid?

The morning came, and Rosé didn't question when I returned to the room, which was good. I don't think I remember the time.

Breakfast was quiet, and the members ordered breakfast in the rooms instead of coming to the public breakfast like we were. I haven't seen him, but I can't hide any longer.

''I'm keeping an eye on you,'' Rosé informed when we were starting our breakfast.

I panicked. Does Rosé know after all? ''W-why?''

''Yesterday you didn't eat enough, and it almost made you faint, so now I'm watching that you'll eat enough and well for the day. Breakfast is important!'' she said.

I mentally exhaled, she didn't know, or she wasn't suspecting anything.

She eyed the food that I hadn't touched yet and then me.

''Alright, alright, I will eat, see?'' I said as I stuffed scrambled eggs into my mouth. She laughed and continued eating.

After breakfast, we got our stuff and headed towards the stadium. The sun was shining brightly, and it looked like it would be a good and warm day. No signs of clouds or any rain, and I'm glad.