If you were going to leave this world how could it be without me?

Whats so good about picking up the pieces?

Vic's POV
"She sits up high,
Surrounded by the sun,
One million branches and she loves everyone...." As I opened my eyes and began to awake, I heard Kellin's angelic voice fill the house from the open bathroom, he often sung in the shower, it was the cutest thing ever. I turned over and clicked my phone on, ignoring all the random notifications and checking the time, 6:30, fućkîng hell Kellin why so early jeez, he doesn't even have to be at college till 8 and I don't have to get to work till 10 today.
I sighed and rolled back over.
Life ay.
I stared up at the ceiling and thoughts began to wonder through my mind, I hate my thoughts, around 80% of the time I feel like I'm drowning in them, it's like I'm screaming and no one can here me. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Things have been bad since school, I only had one friend, Jenna. She was like my sister, everybody else hated me and called me names, I was bullied through out school and it killed me. Me and Jenna remained friends right up until she died, that night will forever haunt me.
I practically killed her.
Fućk. I clamped my eyes tightly shut, stopping any tears from falling. I am pathetic. Man up Vic, man up.
I sat up and then pulled myself up off the bed and then slumped my way into the en-suite bathroom, as Kellin was in the other and he'll probably spend at least another hour performing to no one in the shower.
I pulled off the long sleeved top I was wearing, revealing scarred, cut wrists. I stared at my marks of self destruction for a few minutes before turning on the shower, removing my soft pyjama trousers and hopping in the shower. The water was warm and soothing but it stung the cuts that covered my arms. I quickly washed my hair whilst humming a little song, if Kellin was going to sing one of my songs, I was going to sing his.
"They say that love is forever,
Your forever is all that I need, please stay forever with me," I began to sing when I was rudely interrupted by none other than Kellin Quinn.
"Don't you worry about that, you're stuck with me forever and ever and ever Viccy Poo's" Kellin jokingly called out from the bedroom. I smiled at this, turned off the water and pulled on a pair of skinny jeans and a green day t-shirt that I had brought in there with me, I complete the look with some bracelets I found on the window sill, dried my hair them stared at myself in the mirror for a moment.
I looked like shit today.
Meh.
I left the bathroom and threw myself on the bed where Kellin was sitting on his phone, probably playing some pointless phone game like flappy bird.
"Kelly bear," I whispered, in a slightly high pitched, yet manly tone.
"Oh I thought I was gay but, by the looks of things, my boyfriend is a girl," Kellin looked up from his phone with a cheeky grin.
Damn. He was so freaking cute.
I squirmed closer until our faces were next to each other then I tilted my head to the side and plant my lips on his, that familiar tingling sensation ran through me and I smiled pulling away from my raven haired beauty.
"Ehhhh... I should go..." Kellin sighed looking down at his phone, "I'm going to Katelynne's tonight..." Kellin stared at his feet.
Katelynne is Kellins Ex-wife and the mother of he daughter Copeland, they had spent the last 2 years since the divorce trying to sort out custody of Copeland but Katelynne's a stubborn bi*tch at times... Especially when in comes to Kellin.
"Ok but please get things sorted once and for all..." I sighed.
"I love you Baby," Kellin smiled and kissed my cheek lightly.
"I love you too," I replied as he walked out the door.
I sat down at the kitchen table and poured myself a shot of vodka.
I needed this to get through the day... Downing it, I smiled, the liquid burned the back of my throat, the sensation I longed for would be a few shits away... I longed to feel nothing, but I had to keep going so I screwed the top back on the bottle (not the only thing I'll be screwing ;)) ) and put it back in the cupboard.
After I was done getting ready I rushed down the stairs and went to grab my car keys when there was a knock at the door.
Opening it, shock ran over me, I stared at the figure in disbelief and one thought ran over me.
Oh Sh*t.