A Different Type of Love - A Stellaride Story

Bad Days

It was like a nightmare I couldn't stop living, the moment replaying over and over in my head. The blazing hot flames and the boys who didn't make it out. I couldn't stop thinking about it, these thoughts were driving me crazy. It made me feel something that I haven't felt in a long time, a certain urge. An urge that I haven't felt since I left Grant and got clean.

Hours Earlier...
"Truck 87, Engine 91, Squad 6, Truck 66, Truck 37, Engine 62, Ambo 55, Ambo 63, Ambo 82 Hotel fire 1889 Wabash St."

"Sounds like a big one, let's go people" My lieutenant said as we all geared up. We were still miles out and you could already see the smoke. "It's going to be crazy, lots of people are going to be freaking out. So let's do this fast and get as many people out as possible, but when I say evacuate I mean it. I'm not losing anyone today. Kidd and Vargas you stick with each other I'll stay with Redmond" My lieutenant said as we arrived at the scene. "Copy that lieutenant." We all said.

It was crazy, so many people panicking, lots of smoke, and not lots of time. I knew in this moment it was time to get to work. The fire was on the 17th floor and it was spreading quick. "Vargas, Kidd you guys take 19, once you have cleared that move down to 18, we will take 20 and 21" My lieutenant said. "Copy" Vargas and I said as we headed up the stairs.

Once we reached the entrance to the 19th floor we put our masks on so we could go in. Once we opened the door a bunch of people ran out and were all freaking out. It was pretty smokey up here so they were all short of breath. "Look everyone I know you are freaked out, but we are going to get you outta here you just gotta listen to us" I said in a very loud but calming voice. "Look, head down the stairs in a single file line, but do not run walk slowly so we ensure everyone can get out safely." I said. Everyone had calmed down and stopped panicking and were heading down the stairs. "Nice work Kidd" Vargas said as we headed in.

"Fire Department. Call out!" Vargas and I were yelling as we cleared all the rooms. "Alright I think this floor is clear" Vargas said and we headed to 18. "Lieutenant, this is Kidd and Vargas. We cleared 19 and are on our way to 18" I said. "Copy that. Nice work. Keep going guys" He said. Once we got on the 18th floor there was so much smoke you could hardly see. "Fire Department Call out!" I yelled. Then in a distance you could hear screaming. "Help. Over here" The voice called out. Vargas and I ran in the direction were the voice was coming from and we found a woman on the floor trying to get up, but she could barely breath because all of the smoke. "Please my baby. she's back there. I can't get to her." The woman said. "I'll get her, you go with him and he will help you out." I told her. "We will be waiting for you in the stairwell" Vargas said. "Copy" I said.

I headed into the back room and heard crying. I walked into the room and there was a baby in the crib, I pulled her out and wrapped her in a blanket so she could avoid the smoke and we headed out of the room. Once we got in the stair well I met up with Vargas and we headed down. Vargas and I took the mom and baby to an ambo then changed out our air bottles and headed back in. We were heading back up to the 18th floor when we got stopped at the entrance of the 17th floor, the fire floor.

A women was trying to open the door to the 17th floor to go in. "Ma'am stop. don't enter that's the fire floor" I yelled. She turned and looked at me and said "please help my twin boys are in there. Help me please!" She yelled while starting to tear up. "They already cleared this floor an got all the people out." I told her. "No please I know they are still in there" she said. I looked at Vargas and he gave me a nod to go in. "Ma'am we will get your boys but we need you to go outside and we'll bring them out to you" I told her. "Okay. Okay but please bring my boys back to me." She said before she walked away. Once she left, me and Vargas entered the 17th floor.

There was lots of flames and smoke, it was crazy in there. "Fire Department! Call out!" I yelled multiple times but no response. We checked every room shouting for people to call out but nothing. The flames were starting to get crazy, we didn't have much time left. "Alright. I don't think anybody's up here, let's start heading out" Vargas said. "Copy" I said. As we started to walk out. I saw something move in one of the rooms. "Wait Vargas. I think someone's in here" I told him. "Kidd we cleared that room already, there's nobody there." Vargas said. "Wait hold on let's just look." I said. As we walked towards the room you could see two shadowy figures hiding under the table. "Hey I am a firefighter. My name is Stella and this is Vargas. Your mom is looking for you she's waiting outside. Come with us and we'll take you to her." I said. They weren't coming out. So we started to inch in the room as much as we could. "Look I know you're probably scared but we gotta get—." As Vargas said this a large flashover occurred in the room. Vargas and I both got blown back. When the flashover stopped I looked over at Vargas and he was slowly getting up but in pain. "Vargas are you okay?" I asked him. " I think I just gotta a cut on my leg, I'll live. Let's grab them and get outta here." He said. We both got up and headed back towards the room. When we got to the entrance everything in that room had flamed over, including the two boys. I walked closer and there lie two small charred bodies under the table. I was in shock. I couldn't move, couldn't think. I just stood there blanked face. "Kidd come on there's nothing we can do. We gotta get out. Kidd." Vargas yelled. My mind was so lost I couldn't even hear what he was saying. He then came up and grabbed my arm "Hey come on. There's nothing we can do and we gotta get out before this place flashes over again." Vargas said. I started walking following Vargas out with nothing in my head but the image of those two boys charred bodies.

Once we got outside, right there waiting for us was the mother of the twin boys. "Wait where are my boys? Did you find them?" She asked. Vargas took off his mask and said "Ma'am, I am so sorry. Your boys, they didn't make it." The women's face changed and instantly she stared crying and screaming. "No. No. You said you would get them. You were suppose to get them. My babies." The lady screamed while falling into Vargas's arms. All you could hear was her loud sob. I couldn't stand to see this anymore I walked away to the truck. I took off my helmet and just threw it at the ground. Tears came rolling down my face and all I could think is why couldn't I save them.

Once we got back to the house we all got ready to leave shift. As I was walking out Vargas called out to me "Hey Kidd wait up" He said. I waited for him as he walked over to me. "How's the leg?" I asked. "Just a small cut i'll be fine. But I wanted to tell you, you did good today. You can't save everyone all the time" He said. I just gave him a nod and walked off to my car.

Once I got in my car I just broke down and started crying. All I could see in my head was those two little boys. I just drove home. All I wanted was to be alone. I got home and tried going to sleep but I couldn't... It was like a nightmare I couldn't stop living, the moment replaying over and over in my head. The blazing hot flames and the boys who didn't make it out. I couldn't stop thinking about it, these thoughts were driving me crazy. It made me feel something that I haven't felt in a long time, a certain urge. An urge that I haven't felt since I left Grant and got clean.

Right in this moment I needed to fill this urge inside of me, even though deep down I know I will regret it later. So I left and drove to where I knew I would find what I was looking for. I parked and walked to the corner then handed the guy the money in exchange for what I was looking for, drugs. Once I got in my car I immediately shot up. There goes 5 years of being sober but it felt so good and my mind finally settled.

After taking the drugs I went home. After awhile the high wore off and I decided to go out. So I got all dressed up and went to a bar. I walked in and it was so packed, there was flashing lights and loud music playing. I walked up to the bar. sat down and got a drink. Then a very stunning man came up, he had very blue eyes that you could just drown in. "Hey there" I said. He looked over at me and said "Hey, this seat taken?" "It is now" I said and he sat down. "Kelly" he said. "Stella" I said.

We had some drinks and a couple of shots. We were talking when he asked "So what's a beautiful women like you doing here alone on a Friday night.?" "Sometimes you just have those bad days and this is what makes it better" I told him.  "You wanna get outta here?" he asked. "Yeah totally!" I responded. We caught a cab and headed to his place. Once we got up to his apartment we started making out and then took it to his room.

The Next Morning
It was early the sun was just coming up. I didn't remember anything from last night except coming here and having sex. I did not want to be here when he woke up. So I quietly and quickly got up and left his apartment. I left him a note on the counter so he wouldn't be totally ghosted and went on my way. Once I got home all that was on my mind was those two little boys I couldn't stand to think of it anymore so I shot up again. Once the drugs where in my system all I could remember was the guy from last night. I was so drunk last night I didn't even remember his name but I knew I would probably never see him again anyways.

Authors Note
The first part is finally done! Sorry if it's a little long, but I wanted to fit all of this in one part. Let me know how you guys liked it. Next part coming soon!