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Kai's Journal
To be honest you probably this was a story where a boy dates a girl. Only to fall in love with her sister, but her sister hates him. Slowly the sister falls in love with him and the girl finds out. The problem then the boy and girl are friends while the boy and sister date. The end.
Yeah, this isn't that story. I know how this whole thing is going to play out. Not because I read too many love stories or fanfictions. I got stuck in this movie...book...whatever you wanna call it.
It was a normal day for me. Watching Youtube and drawing some random doodles when I got bored with it. I went to Netflix to watch a TV show or Kdrama but I found a movie I heard of a while back.
It was called 'After' and so I watched it. It was the most obvious love movie ever. It was pretty dumb, sorry it just I knew what was going to happen. The story was an overused cliche drama love story. Now I like some of those stories, but this one made me not angry or really feel that addicting at all.
When I finished the movie I was in my bed reading on Wattpad. A blue light appeared and sucked me into it and before I knew it. I was a little girl wandering the streets and it didn't take long for me to figure out I was in the movie.
When I learned the names of the people who took me in is when I realized I was in a dumb cliche movie. Not knowing how to get back, I decided to stay and try to see if I could change the story, but it was hopeless.
Alice and Sophie knew that I wasn't from here because they aren't even real. I made them up to help me in the movie and don't ask how I did it. I don't even know. I also appeared super smart, so I used it to my advantage to help Tessa.
This whole time I was doing this for Tessa. To help and protect from Hardin, but my choices didn't really do anything. The story went on the same with only a few changes.
What are those changes? Well, Hardin has feelings for me. If I hadn't made that clear yet. Here you go. This is why I am avoiding Hardin and the fact I don't really like him.
He is like all the boys who mess up and even though I usually go for bad boys, sometimes. That bad boy is staying away from me whether he likes it or not. I don't care.
If you thought I was going to swoon over him, you're wrong. I understand, but that doesn't mean for him to be this way. He still has his parents while I don't and I may never see them again.
I hated him in the movie and I hate him now. How was I supposed to know that someone could fall in love with me? I mean come on, if he really thinks I'm going to magically fall for him then he is insane.
Another reason is if I change the story I won't know happens next and that scares me. What if someone dies or gets hurt? I wouldn't be able to live like that.
Besides falling in love scares me since I have never fallen for anyone. I'm not really good at expressing my emotions and foreign feelings scare me deeply. I have seen how love can truly hurt a person.
Hardin Scott is a boy who is going to be with Tessa Young, not Kai Phoenix. For he can't be with someone who doesn't really exist in this world. Not that I would date him.
I care very much for Tessa. She became the sister I never had and being raised with her made me very protective. I wanted to change the course of the story, but what is written can be changed. Just not in the way I had hoped.
I had never thought I would get stuck in such a cliche movie honestly. I would rather be in an anime right now. Seven Deadly Sins or SAO maybe. Somewhere not here, even though I do care for some of the characters deeply.
I wonder what will happen after I get out. Will the story stay the same or will it change because of me being here? I mean I always wanted to try acting, but not this way of doing it.
I will kind of miss some people. I mean Alice and Sophie weren't really real but didn't mean that they didn't help me when I needed it the most. I trusted them as any normal best friends do.
I hate goodbyes. They hurt so much. This is why I'm so numb to my emotions because they cause me the most pain. It's too much for me. I don't want to live every day in so much pain.
I wonder if my parents are looking for me? Do they miss me? Am I even gone? Maybe I am in a coma. That could happen. They must be really worried about me.
One thing I never wanted to experience in life was to disappoint anyone because it would be my biggest regret. I hate feeling so useless. I hate making people feel such sadness or pain. It scars me in my heart.
To see someone cry makes me feel like I'm the one who did it. I never wanna make anyone cry or be alone. I have spent too much time crying and being alone. It wasn't worth it.
I know soon things are going to be real chaos and I'm not sure I'm ready for it. I have to be there for Tessa. She will need me and I will be there by her side. This is not going to be a pretty ending. Hopefully, we will manage to be okay and move forward.
This might be the only journal I write in this book, but who knows. Writing always did help me let go of emotions that were too much for me to keep inside. I will have to go soon. I promised Tessa I would go with her to the library today.
