INSIGHT

51. Tell me why?

Still remember that day, when you said you're going far away.
Always knew it would happen but didn't expect it do.
I guess life doesn't prepare us for pain.
Never thought too much about it, the day we hugged goodbye.
I thought you'd come back, there's no way you'd leave.
Kept waiting for your return but I guess I should've taken the hint.
6 months passed away,
I lost my way.
Never thought it'd be like that.
Wish I knew what fate had in store for me.
But then, one day you came.
Though now I kinda wish you didn't
Cause it made me realize how much I missed.
Couldn't hold back the tears, cried for a day.
You were finally here, even though only for a few days.
It's okay, I knew I wasn't your priority.
But you were mine and I wished, this time you'd stay.
Not somewhere far away.
And then you went again.
This time, the goodbye, another kind of pain.
It hurt but I had no say.
I knew you had to leave just didn't know I'll be this way. All over again.
I thought, I was good at not getting attached.
But I was wrong again.
And slowly you drifted away.
A text one week, and you expected we'd stay.
I should have been grateful though cause it turned into months and just more days.
So tell me why I cried on call when I heard your voice after so many days?
I know it just for your benefit.
But it gave hope, knowing you still remember my name.
Just a little "hi" felt like too much to ask.
But tell me why I was always there, waiting in silence for you to realize?
I was the one putting in effort but tell why you got to call me names?
Saying I'm a horrible friend.
So tell why it's killing me inside, knowing I was there when you moved on?
Found another place.
Oh tell why I'm doing this to myself.
Tell me why, oh why do I care?
When all you do is, push me away.
Why do I still try?
When you don't even wanna look my way.
Tell me why I'm still here?
When you've moved on and away.
Tell why I'm making up excuses for your lack of replies?
Telling myself, she has her own life, and not enough time.
I know you have a lot going on but I do too.
I'm pushing through for you,
Can't you do the same?
Was I that hard to put up with?
Oh you just walked away.
Was I too much to bear?
Please tell me something I want to hear.
Now keep your sorries and your concerns to yourself.
Cause you've moved on, now it's time I do as well.
So consider this a goodbye from my side.
But just know that I'll be here in case you need help.
I've always been here, it's just you, who left.

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A/N: it's a song I wrote, hope you guys liked it

Please don't ignore the effort people put in for you, you may not realize it, but they expect the same from you. Whether it's your friend or family or even a partner, just know that a relationship (platonic or not) works both ways. Both people have to put in the same amount of effort.

Ree, you know you this for ( I hope you do)

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