INSIGHT

41. Where?

Where was everyone when I needed them?
Where was the world when I cried for help?
Where were they when I needed them most?
Where were they when I used to starve myself because I didn't feel worthy of food?
Where were they on the nights my tears were my only company?
Where were they when I broke down every few minutes?
Where were they when I mentally tortured myself because I was made to believe that it was well deserved?
Where were they when I found pleasure in cutting myself?
Where were they when I couldn't see past my own tears?
Where were they when I covered my mouth so they couldn't hear my screams?
Where were they when I hurt myself for fun?
Where were they when all I could think about was how happy they would be without me?
Where were they when I thought my problems would go away if I run?
Where were they when I said goodbye to myself?
Where were they when everyday I would pray that I don't wakeup?
Where were when I screamed at it to go away?
Where were they when I begged my thoughts to stop?
Where were they when I envisioned a knife through my own heart multiple times?
Where were they when I told myself that I'll never wake up again?
Where were they when I tried to end it all?
Where were they when I longed to breathe?
Where were they when my demons took control of me?
Where were they when every thought and word triggered it?
Where were they when I asked them to listen?
Where were they when I wanted to open up?
Where were when I was drowning in my own pain?
Where were they when I needed help?
Where was their love and care?
Where was their empathy?
Where were they when they said they'd be here?
The answers to these questions are something I'll never hear.

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Damn this one made me cry while writing it.
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