Not Okay

ch. 1

Present day 2019
As I begin to open my eyes I can feel the sun light pouring in. My eyes burn my head is killing me I feel so sore. Not only does this feel like the worst the worst hangover I've ever had I also have a 50 pound dog laying on stomach trying to kill me. Bruiser is like a bag of bricks when he's asleep. As I start to sit up while waking up Bruiser I start to rethink my poor decisions I made last night. Maybe drinking that much was a bad idea. I really couldn't care less I needed to forget about everything going on in my life last night.

This week has got to have been the worst week i've had since the incident 3 years ago. Just thinking of the incident makes me want to throw up. What a great way to wake up the day after my 21st birthday. Yay me!!

"Bubs come on you got to get up it's time for breakfast" I say softly to Bruiser. My throat has never felt so dry in my whole entire life.

As Bruiser and I start to get up of the bed to head to the kitchen my phone starts ringing. I can just tell it's going to be my parents because it's 9 in the morning and no collage student is up that early on a Saturday. My head is killing me and they choose to call now. I'm not really in the mood to be smothered.  Maybe if I chuck my phone at the wall all of my problems will be solved. I no the isn't the answer and if i don't pick up they'll just show up here.

I pick up the phone and surprise surprise it's my mom.

"Hello" I say slightly annoyed to my mom.

"Hey sweetie just calling to see how our 21 year old is doing." before I can even respond she just straight into the questions.

"Did you have fun last night? I had texted Reese last night when you didn't pick up she said that you were having a rough night? What happened?"

"Yes I had fun last night. It was not a rough night it's just that me and Ryan broke up. No big deal though so don't worry." I try to keep my voice as calm as possible so she doesn't start freaking out.

"Oh sweetie are you sure you're okay? You guys dated for almost 3 years?" my mom says. Way to rub salt in the wounds.

"Mom I promise you I'm doing okay." I reassure her.

"Well I'm glad but you can tell me if you're not sweetie. The main reason I had called though was to talk to you about your father and I ending your lease at the apartment early so you can come back home and stay with us." She says trying to act so calm and collected.

"Wait what. No mom i'm not moving out okay. I'm gonna find a job this week to pay for the apartment so you and dad don't have to anymore. But i'm not moving out that's stupid."

"Sweetie we just want what's best for you. You started to seem like you were falling down the same bunny hole from 3 years ago this past month we just want what's best for you."

"Mom i'm fine okay I'm going to therapy i have Bruiser i'm fine. I'm a different person that was 3 years ago okay, let's just pretend it didn't happen. I don't want to leave the apartment you have a key you can check up on me whenever i'll get a job to pay for it. Please just let me stay." I beg my mom.

"Aubrey come on don't be like this you're being diff-" I cut her off of her statement.

"Let me try by myself if in a month or two you don't want me living by myself then we can talk about it" I try and compromise.