CK'S JOURNAL

Tuesday, 24 November 2020

Hey guys!

What's up? Did you miss me already? I wanted to write this sooner but I've been keeping myself busy with other things. (Playing League. I have no life. 😂)

Anyways, I successfully made oreo ice cream! It is sooooooo gooooood! A little too sweet but hey, who cares? I deserve sweetness in my life!

I ordered myself a knitting set and it should arrive by today or tomorrow. I can't wait to start knitting! I've always wanted to do this and now I'm actually doing it. 🥰

Now, let's get to the serious part of this journal.

I was finally able to see my sister and nephew again a few days ago. I really missed them. I just really missed having someone around the house. We were able to talk things out and from what I can tell, everyone hates the situation we've put ourselves in.

I really hope this conflict gets resolved as soon as possible cuz I hate feeling like this. The house feels so empty. I just turn on music as loud as I can without disturbing the neighbours every day now.

I don't even have a reason to cook. Which makes me eat less now. I don't mind it cuz I don't really need food much now. I got used to eating one meal a day and sometimes I don't even eat that much.

When I met with my sister, my nephew was like pretending to not know me. He is sooo cute. He only acknowledged me after my sister had to go the bathroom and I had to look after him for a bit.

I held him in my arms yet he still wasn't looking at me directly. His hand was holding mine though. 😂

I kept calling his name and asking if he even remembered me. Then, he suddenly let out a small shout. I copied him and he smiled. 🥰🥰

After that, he was finally giving me some attention. He's too adorable. I can't help but smile.

The most touching moment that happened was right before we went our separate ways. My nephew reached out his arms towards me and my sister. We held his hand then he pulled us both towards him. He pulled us into a group hug which almost made me cry but I didn't cuz we were in public. 😭😭

This kid knows what's going on. He knows and that makes me want to cry even more.

Anyways, before I actually start crying writing this, let's just end it here.

I really hope everything works out in the end. I hate being in this situation. I just wanna feel at ease again.

Thank you guys for being here again listening to me rant. I've always been the good listener and no one around me are ever willing to listen to my problems without turning the attention towards themselves. It's tiring listening to others problem while I have so much to get through.

Thank you again. Really. This helps.

Sincerely,
CK Salma