Diary (Draco X Tom X Reader| love triangle)

~eighteen~

|WARNING| I think a TW is needed for this whole part. Su1cide references are gonna be in this (cutting...) and also Pansy and her friends bullying. If you need to skip, please do. In the next part I will do  a less detailed recap on this part. Okay, thanks!

~the next day~

I groaned and got out of bed, nearly late for the start of breakfast. I put on my robe, skirts and tights. My blue streaks were fading, so I muttered a spell and they immediately became lively and vibrant again. I brushed on some nude eyeshadow and put on black eyeliner. I blinked on some mascara and applied lip balm. I quickly brushed my teeth.

I looked a bit more alive than yesterday, at least. I quickly brushed my hair into a high ponytail and hurried to breakfast. Yet again, professors weren't there. I sat down and nobody noticed. Blaise wasn't there, and I obviously wasn't going to talk to Draco. I slowly ate a waffle, and near to my last bite someone tapped my shoulder.

"Have you not eaten enough? You are looking a bit bloated... and fat," Pansy seethed, scowling down at me.

At this point, I was convinced it was true. I didn't feel like fighting. I put down the waffle and waited for the lessons to start. Potions was finally announced to be started, and I got up and headed for the classroom. 

Nothing happened that day, except the usual. Through the night, I woke up and decided to go down to the common room. Pansy and her clique were there drinking, even though it was like 2am. They were surprisingly quiet, and ignoring them was easy. 

"Do you wanna try this pill you whore?" Pansy giggled, sticking out a bag of pills. There were multiple bags, actually. 

"Can I take the full thing?" I snapped.

Her and her friends exchanged a shocked glance, and she threw over 6 different packets. I thanked her sarcastically and waited for them to leave. I began eating them, not drinking them down with anything. After two packets, they started refilling. Ho- Ohh, it's a spell. At least I have a limitless amount.

Something black caught my attention on the floor, a diary. There weren't initials, so I opened it. Nothing said anything about the owner of this strange diary. I read it in my head.

"Piper doesn't know it, but I love her. In fact she hasn't looked at me since that night. I remember that night, or should I say those two nights? I don't know, but I don't want some stupid classic romance. Wait what am I saying? I can't feel those things! No, I simply shan't. Disgusting." 

Was this Draco's? Wait... what does it mean two nights? Me and Draco only did it once. So who have I done it with twice... or maybe it doesn't mean doing 'it'. Though in the context and way it's wrote, it does give me an idea. Tom Riddle.

Maybe I should confront him, you know embarrass him. Nahh, probably not even his. I stopped with the 'pills' and went back up to my dorm. I was drowsy, and fell asleep quickly. 

The next morning, I woke up with my head pounding. I got ready the same as yesterday,  and ran down to breakfast. Oh, I was early. Pansy and her clique were obviously the only ones there. Why the fuck them? 

"Oh, hello, bitch!" Pansy smiled sarcastically.

"You should kill yourself like Daphne, it would do everyone a favour. Nobody wants you hear. Though don't make it the same way as Daphne. You should overdose on those pills we gave you. Please, I beg!" Millicent laughed.

Just then, loud shoes walked into the hall. I turned my head and saw Draco. He was scowling at me, and then smirked, "They're right," is all he said, before walking over to Pansy and kissing her passionately. What a disgusting, little motherfucker! Not like I care, nope, uh-uh.

Tears glassed over my eyes, and I turned. They fell gently and I ran back up to my dorm. I locked the door and went into the bathroom. I muttered a spell and a razor blade appeared into my hand. I rolled up my sleeves.

Tears kept falling, and I slowly began slitting my wrists. Blood seeped out from my skin, and I stopped. I realised I had done 6 different cuts. No, Daphne wouldn't want me to. She'd want me to be happy. 

I swiftly pulled my sleeves up and wiped my eyes. Somehow, none of my makeup was smudged. Luckily when I got back to the Great Hall, it was full and loud. I walked over to where me and Daphne used to sit, and began eating a pancake with syrup. Pansy, Draco and their clique walked over to me.

"Pill diet, pill diet. If they give you a knew pill then you will buy it. If they say to kill yourself then you will try it. All the makeup in the world won't make you less insecure! When I was with Blaise he told me you got weights in your pockets, when you go to the doctors. Your favourite candy's cotton that's why all your teeth are rotten. Silly girl... with silly boys!" Draco mocked. 

I put my food back and went back into the dorm where I stayed for the day. I slept for most of it, completely forgetting everything that was going on.

A/N: This is so crappy, 2 more parts will be out soon though. Idk LMAOO I wrote this within 20 minutes so it's shit.