It Isn't Over.

Chapter Eleven

"What are you doing here?" I asked Tyler while from the corner of my eye I watched Sam drive away. ​​​​​​​​​​​​

"I wanted to talk to you" he said and reached for my waist to pull me against him. "What were you doing with him?" ​​​​​​​​​​

"Nothing" I said and pecked his lips trying to make myself forget the way Sam had kept his hand on my knee all night; trying to forget how happy he'd looked when he talked about New York. ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

He rubbed the back of my neck "You're leaving in a few days" he said. ​​​​

I nodded "I'll miss you" I lied. We were not going to see each other 'till next summer probably and we weren't a couple so this was the end of us. ​​​​​​

"I want to be exclusive" he blurted out. ​​​​​​​​

To say I was shocked was an understatement. The only reason I was with Tyler in the first place was because neither of us wanted something more. I had used him to have fun and feel wanted without the risk of getting hurt. .

"No" I said. "Tyler, what are you talking about? We both went into this knowing that we weren't going to be anything more." ​​​​​​​​​​

"Jade, you know I only agreed to that because it was the only way I could be with you. I've wanted you since the ninth grade, remember?" ​​​​​​​

"I'm leaving soon. We're not going to see each other for a really long time." ​​

"Ever heard of long distance?" ​​​​​​​​

"Tyler, no. I'm not having a long distance relationship with you. We don't even know each other."

We mostly fooled around and partied together. This was the last thing I'd ever expect from Tyler.​​​​​​​​ ​​​

"I like you a lot, Jade. I don't want you finding someone else while you're away." ​

"Oh please, there is going to be a ton of hot girls where you're going. You can find someone better than me." ​​​​​​​​​​

"Is this because of Sam? God, just like the first time I asked you to go out with me, he's ripping you from me again." ​​​​​​​​​​​

"This has nothing to do with Sam. We started this relationship knowing that we were never going to be boyfriend and girlfriend. And I am not having a long distance relationship."​​

"I'm gonna miss you" he said pulling me closer and attacking my neck with kisses. God this was just what I needed after that stressful evening with my dad. I couldn't bear the sight of him and Alice looking like a married couple. And I hated how Alice tried to be nice to me. ​​

"Tyler, we're never going to be more than this" I said to him and pushed him back a little. "I'm not ready for a real relationship" I admitted and I felt so pathetic because it had ben ten months since Sam broke up with me and yet I was still afraid of being hurt. ​​​​

I wrapped my hands around his neck and pulled his lips against mine. I kept my eyes open as I kissed him, forcing myself to memorize his face in the hopes it would erase Sam's; because all I could think about was the way he looked at me all night.

I kissed Tyler hard but not passionately. As he ran his fingers up and down my back, I tried to force my heart to speed up because I didn't want Sam to be the only one who could make my heart race. I wanted to convince myself that Sam wasn't the only one. But my heart stayed constant, never missing a beat. ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​