i hate accidents (except when we went from friends to this) • jenlisa fanfiction

"i'm not letting you go!"

february 2020

"jennie, i'm tired. let's not do this right now." lisa sighed, sitting on the couch.

"what do you mean let's not do this right now?! you've been away to china for a week and you didn't even pick up my calls!" jennie shouted.

"i texted you back!"

"you texted me back once a day!"

"you're overreacting!" lisa yelled back, standing up from the couch.

"is it one of your trainees?!"

"no, it's not! i'm just fucking tired, okay?!"

"atleast make time for me! you're in a whole 'nother different country and you don't even make time to talk to your girlfriend! i was worried!"

"i'm a fucking adult, i can take care of myself!" lisa yelled out, her eyes looking straight into jennie's, "stop treating me a fucking child!"

jennie, was now genuinely afraid of her girlfriend. lisa has never talked to her like that before, but she wasn't going to show that lisa.

"i'm so fucking tired, jennie! what the fuck do you think i do?! fuck my trainees?! this happens every single time, jennie! what the fuck do you think i am?!" lisa started pacing around the living room.

"i come home expecting to atleast have some rest but i got this. you know, jennie? i'm getting tired of this. you picking a fight over little things. i can't do this all the fucking time for God's sake!" lisa yelled out, causing jennie to flinch.

"what do you want me to do?! just listen to you?! do whatever the fuck you tell me to?! i have a life besides you, in case you forgot."

jennie's tears started to fall as she just stood there, "leave."

"what did you say?" lisa asked, turning around to look at jennie.

"i said leave!" jennie shouted, looking at the younger woman.

"fine!"

"don't ever come back!"

"i'll come back once you get your shit together, jen." lisa walked to the direction of the door.

"get my shit together?! i'm not the one acting like a fucking asshole here, lisa!"

"you know? i'm tired of this. i'm tired of you." lisa said in the heat of the moment.

jennie slapped lisa, leaving a powerful sting on lisa's cheek.

"fuck you, lisa."

"yeah, fuck me. because i'm always the bad guy." lisa said with venom on her tongue.

"i hate you so much!" jennie cried out.

"everyone fucking does, jennie!" lisa yelled out before leaving her and jennie's shared apartment, closing the door shut with so much force.

jennie cried as she felt her knees grow weak, causing her to fall down on the floor.

~

jennie opened the door the next morning to see lisa sleeping on the doorstep of their apartment, still in the exact same clothes she wore when she left.

lisa had a bottle of tequila in her hands as she slept, her back against the wall beside their apartment's door.

jennie felt her heart break at that sight, and lisa has caused her way too much heartbreak already.

"what are you doing here?" jennie asked sharply, shocking lisa and causing her to wake up.

"j-jennie." lisa stood up from her previous, uncomfortable position on her floor.

"what happened to your lips?" jennie asked, noticing the dry blood on her lips and chin.

"chaeyoung d-did it." lisa answered.

"you deserved it."

"i did." lisa said, licking the blood on her lips, "i'm really sorry, jennie. i didn't mean anything i said."

"it sounded as if you did."

"i didn't, jennie. please. i'm sorry."

"you hurt me so much lisa."

"i know, please forgive me, i didn't mean anything. i love you."

"how could you say that to me, lisa? after all what happened yesterday."

"jennie, please ..."

"did you expect that i take you back with open arms the moment you tell me you love me? is that how dumb you think i am?"

"i love you so much, jennie." lisa's eyes started to water, "i know i fucked up but i am so sorry. i was just tired, i didn't mean anything i've said."

"you told me you'd take everything that came with me, whether it be good or bad. you told me you'll never get tired of me. you told me countless things that weren't true! what makes your i love you any different?" jennie said, her tongue full of poison.

"i was just tired, jennie. i'm sorry. i didn't mean anything i've sa-"

"lisa, leave." jennie demanded.

"no." lisa cried.

"lisa, please."

"no. i won't. i'll stay here."

"just go, lisa."

"to where?! this is my home, jennie! you're my home."

"just go to chaeng's-"

"she won't talk to me too! jennie, please. i love you and i'm sorry."

"i love you too, lisa. but it hurts."

"jennie ..."

"leave me alone, lisa."

"i'm not letting you go!"

jennie closed the door behind her, ignoring the sound of lisa's voice calling her name from the other side.