Love is a Drug:Jim Carroll(Leonardo DiCaprio)

Just Another Day.

The thunder rumbled outside of my window as I lay in bed trying to find sleep, but I couldn't stop the tears from falling down my face. They just kept coming, one tear after another streaming down my face. I could barely control my breath, I tried to take deep breaths but it all came out in a quick huff. My dark room only lit by one candle.

That's how I felt about him. I always surrounded by darkness and soulless people, but him. He was the light in my life. The one who kept me going, the one who kept me alive. As I lay down the tears slowly drying on my face.

I focused on the flame, how it moved faster than the breeze but stayed with it. I got up out of bed, walking slowly over to the candle flickering on my desk. I hovered my hand over the flame to feel the warmth and heat. But when my fingers got to close it burned. I took a deep breath in and extinguished the candle with my breath.

Now the room fully represented my life. Full of darkness. My one light gone. He was gone. And I was nearly gone as well.

                                5 years prior
*knock knock* I heard knocking at my window. I rolled over onto my side to look at the alarm clock on my nightstand it seemed to be around 8:30am, I only had about 45 minutes to get ready for school. *knock knock*
"Coming." I rolled my eyes and opened my window to see Jim standing on my balcony.

"Good morning Vivi." Jim has been my best friend since we were around 5 years old. It was like ritual for him to come wake me up before school. We both live in Downtown New York. Downtown NY is a very rundown place. Leo lives in an apartment complex a few blocks away from me. I live in a pretty high quality complex. My apartment has two bedrooms and two bathrooms. One room for me and one room for my mom.

Speaking of my mom she works really early morning shifts at a diner about 20 minutes away so she is normally gone before I'm awake. She does a lot for me and I'm very grateful for her and all she does for me.

Me and Jim are both only children and have never met our fathers. We are alike in that way, it is one of the reasons we are super close, we can relate to each other.

"Morning." I was still tired because i had trouble sleeping last night , so I sounded very dead.

"How did you sleep?" As Jim said this he crawled through my window.
"Horrible." I looked him in the eyes and gave him a tired look.
"I can see that." He raised his eyebrows and sat down on my bed.  I looked at him annoyed and gestured for him to get up.
"I have to make my bed. Get up." He got up hesitantly and I started to make up my bed.
"Someone's in a grumpy mood." I looked at Jim trying not to smile, but I smiled anyway. "I love it when you smile." Jim winked at me. I made a gagging motion and he started laughing.
" can you get out I have to change?" I pointed at the door but Jim stated put.
" don't flatter yourself. I'm not looking." I rolled my eyes and grabbed Jim by the color of his  shirt and shoved him out of the room.  After I finished changing I walked out of the door and headed into my bathroom.

I grabbed my brush and a couple hair ties and started doing my hair. I went to an all girls school, and Jim went to an all boys school so we both had strict uniforms. Jim had to wear a suit and a tie, and I had to wear a plaid skirt with a sweater or collared shirt depending on the weather. We also had rules for what we could do with our hair. We weren't aloud. To wear it down, it had to be tied up somehow. I looked at my reflection and started brushing my long golden brown hair. It was quite tangled after a restless night. After de tangling it I put a hair tie around my wrist and threw my hair up into a messy bun. I looked at myself in the mirror and just looked at my features. I had light blue eyes and a pretty small nose. My jawline was kind of visible and I had decently chiseled cheek bones.
I was never really insecure about my face, but I was always insecure about my body. I am pretty skinny but that is due to an eating disorder I had a while ago. I suffered from anorexia a few summers ago, and it has taken me a while to recover, but Jim was with me the whole time to help me get through it. I had a bigger chest than most girls my age but I tried not to think about it too much.

I put on my glasses and turned to Jim who had been watching em get ready the whole time. "How do I look?" I did a little twirl and giggled.
"Great. But let me fix one thing," Jim untucked the color from my sweater and adjusted it for me, "Perfect." I started to smile so I looked down at my feet. 
I walked back into my room to check the time. It was now 9:15 school started at 9:30.
"Shit." Me and Jim only had 15 minutes to get to school on time. Our schools were across the street from each other so we always took the subway together.
"We gotta go!" Jim grabbed my hand and yanked me out of my room and dragged me through our apartment. I let go so I could lock the door, but he grabbed my hand again and we ran through the apartment complex all the way to the subway station.
We stopped at the subway station panting. "Damn Jim your fast." I was still trying to catch my breath.
"Thanks. But we better get on the subway before it leaves."
"Your right." We took each other's hand and walked to the subway, when it came to a stop we hopped on and found a seat.

The ride was like any normal subway ride, a few odd stares from random guys. An occasional old lady looking for something and any other odd person coming up to you for god knows what reason.

After we stopped at school I said bye to Jim and walked to class. I had English first. Ugh I hate writing. Jim normally as math first but half of the time he ditched to go do drugs in the locker rooms or bathrooms. I hated it when he did that.
I was nearly asleep listening to my teacher drone on and on and on about grammar and spelling. I was already doing fine in this class, so I didn't really need to listen.  I was about to fall asleep until I heard a noise that woke me up. I sat directly next to the window so I looked out of it and saw Jim standing there he was making a waving motion and mouthing "Come on!"
"Ms.Brighton is there something out there distracting you?" Mr.Thompson looked at me with suspicion in his eyes. I gulped
"Oh uh. No sir, but I was wondering if I could use the restroom?"
"May I." He corrected me.
"May I use the restroom?" I asked sounding annoyed.
"Yes you may." I grabbed my bag and got up out of my seat.
"Now why do you need your bag?" Mr.Thompson stopped me from leaving. I was prepared for this question.
"Lady things." Those two words are enough to shut any male teacher up. I left the classroom and went to the bathroom in the first floor. Once I got to the bathroom I looked out the window to make sure no one was there and I opened it and jumped out.

I ran to the front of the building to meet Jim. I saw him waiting on a bench so I ran up to him.
"Hey I made it!" Jim looked up and smiled. He then got up from the bench and said,
"Great! Come on we have somewhere to go." I was intrigued.
"Ooo where?" I stood up on my tiptoes and put my head on his shoulder.
"Uh uh. The puppy eyes won't work for me. But before we go we have to go meet Mickey, Pedro, and Neutron." These were some of Jim's friends he made them once he started playing on the basketball team. I had grown to be friends with them too. I only had one friend at my school. It's kinda weird how I go to an all girl school and am friends with more boys. I guess I just get along with them better I don't really know. The one girl-friend I had was named Abbigail, but she went by Abby. Occasionally she would hang out with me and the boys, but not often. She didn't really like ditching school, she has really bad anxiety so she gets really worked up when we do.
"Fine." I took my head off of Jim's shoulder and we started walking. "Where are we meeting them?" I honestly had no idea where we were going.
"I can't tell you or it will ruin the surprise." Jim looked at me and I frowned.
"Ugh I hate surprises." I rolled my eyes and kept walking.
"I love seeing you annoyed." Jim laughed at me and punched me lightly in the arm.
"Oh shut the fuck up Jim. I know you absolutely adore me." I said this sarcastically as I started skipping down the road. He laughed and started jogging to catch up with me.
"Vivi wait your going the wrong way." Jim grabbed my arm and made a sharp right turn.
After a little more walking we made it to a foothill.
"We just have to walk up it." I tapped Jim on the shoulder and waved my arms up and down my body
"Do you see what I'm wearing?" I was wearing wedged shoes, tights, a skirt, and a sweater. Not an outfit one would hike in.
"Yes I do. And I don't think my outfit is the best either but I'm not complaining." I scoffed amd we started hiking up the hill.