How Long Will I Love You?

Running Into Breakup

A/N: I've been busy and was not able to update last week. So here's a long chapter update. I hope you guys read till the end. Enjoy!

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"Are you ever completely split between wishing you never met someone and wishing you could re-meet them again and do it all differently?"

16 weeks ago.

Approximately four months since I last saw Sungjae with Luna and heard the news that they're getting married which shattered my heart including my hopes of having a complete family – our child and him – spending the rest of our lives together. I'm not entirely sure how I'm feeling right now, my insides are all tangled and in a jumble. I miss him but I detest what I saw back then. I want him, but I'm too scared and hurt to do something about it. I don't want my child to grow up not knowing its father, but I don't think Sungjae deserves to know the truth about my pregnancy. It seemed like he doesn't care at all even with the rumors spreading that Eunwoo is the father of the child in my belly. I can't blame the people spreading the gossips because Eunwoo has always been by my side ever since we got back from the island. I just felt sorry for my child. I wish Eunwoo was the father, but he's not and he just straightly rejected me when I asked him a couple more times to marry me saying that instead of marrying me, he'll be a father figure for my child.

28 weeks.

It's about seven months since Island B. Our little pumpkin has been growing well and healthy inside me. My baby bump is showing, I'm gaining weight and I feel huge.

"Am I not pretty anymore?" I asked teary eyed when I saw my photos from D&S magazine back when I was still not so pregnant and big like today.

Eunwoo stared at me with an incredulous expression on his face, "Of course you're still pretty, Joy! You have always been stunningly beautiful, even now that you're belly is growing and you're gaining weight. You. Are. Beautiful."

I sighed loudly and eyed him seriously. "Then why won't you marry me?"

He gave me an exasperated look and narrowed his eyes before flicking my forehead. "Because you're not in your right mind whenever you ask me." He paused as if he remembered something, "If I've known back then that Sungjae would treat you like this I should have dated you when we met three years ago." He ruffled my hair before getting the car keys on the table. "Eat. I'll be back after picking up the ingredients Se-hyung asked me to get for the restaurant."

"I know I've been complaining about my weight, but Se-hyung has been spoiling me ever since we started living with him. I kind of feel ashamed. I always eat good and healthy food, all thanks to him!" I settled down at the dining area and started eating the food Se-hyung prepared before leaving. He was going to open a branch of his restaurant at the RV building and he needed to supervise and check everything before the grand opening.  We've been living together with him at Eunwoo's place located at one of the most peaceful neighborhood in the city where there is more trees than houses. Yes, I've been living with them and we have separate rooms. It was my doctor's suggestion that I try to avoid stress as much as possible when I started getting sick and then lost weight all because I was feeling down and unloved. Eunwoo volunteered his house and that's how we ended up staying in the same house. Some RV members visits and sleep over from time to time.

Eunwoo smiled brightly at me, "Do you want anything in particular?"

I glared at him, "You're also spoiling me, you know that? Could you bring home some kiwi please?" I smiled brightly then continued eating after waving at him. "Take care!"