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How I feel most of the time..I just needed to find a way to release my pain...and I found out that spilling my heart down on paper is the best way.

What Have I Become

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by HappyLanie

by HappyLanie

I look into my eyes every morning...

I see pain.

But am I the only one who sees it...?

Am I the only one who notices that I'm dying inside.

That just because I've stopped cutting doesn't mean I'm not in pain anymore.

Who notices?...

I try to hide it but I'm not a very good actress...

I have become more and more consumed in depression as my life goes by..

Some points I'm happy but something always hovers over me and tells me that I don't deserve happiness.

I'm not good enough for that.

I deserve the pain I have put upon myself.

Every bit of it.

I want to keep going with life because I want to see if I make it in the end...

But the pain right now is to hard too bare I don't want to go on with life.

But I push on...in pain. Like always..

I hate myself darling...