SleepyBoys - Family AU

seventeen

tw / death , mourning , blood , suicide

--Techno's POV--

i watched as he paced back and forth on the cold, grey concrete

i watched as his eyes widened

i watched as the blood drained from his face

i watched as he stared over my shoulder

i watched as he walked over to the edge

i watched as i failed to reach out to him

i watched as i failed to run to him

i watched as i failed to save him

i watched as he turned slowly to me and murmured something to me

i watched as he laughed

i watched as he gently stepped off

i watched as he fell

i watched as he left me

i watched from my own eyes as i sprinted down the stairs

i watched as i arrived at the ground

i watched as i saw his body

oh god

his body

his body

it was limp and pale, blood seeping out onto the cracked pavement

i ran over

i fell down next to his body

i took his body in my arms and rocked slightly

i bent over him, holding him close

his scent overtook my nose

he smelt like soft flowers with scents of spring grass and a light smell of burnt toast lingered on him

i cried over him

then i heard someone running up to us

"oh my god" i heard him

phil

phil

"oh my god" he repeated, more horrified than the last

then i heard the sirens

they came close, blaring in my head, i couldn't shut them out

they tried to tear me away from him

i tried to hold on

but they took him

they took my little brother away from me

phil held me in his arms

we were on the cold ground together

holding each other

and crying

until phil got up and guided me up too

i felt us walk into the ambulance

i felt myself sit down

all i could do was stare at the boy as the doctors tried to save him

as they did everything they could to bring him back to life

but i knew he was gone

i felt all my emotions drain as my tears dried on my face as i stared longingly at the boy on the stretcher

i stared at his closed eyes and the soft smile on his lips

i examined his hair and how it stuck up slightly

i saw how his hands were relaxed

i saw him

dead

dead

i saw him leave me

and in that moment alone

was the most alone i had ever felt in my life

until i saw him

sitting next to me

whilst also being on the bed

and then i heard his last words being played in my head

over

and over

and over

they were shouting at me, screaming, yelling at me to listen to them

"i guess-" he stopped to laugh, "guess I was insane!"